crapwatehell

2006-08-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

i noe wat i wan 2 get... i noe where i planned to go... i noe wat i wan 2 dream for...
Being PY is hard... lots of stories to tel... lots of events to witness... lots of tings to settle... u surely dun wan 2 b me these few weeks and mths after...
salvage my situation... i hav to study for e better of myself and e goal to promote will b my target and my wild dreams will b drawn closer n closer each day... the days r nw over... drag my lazy self towards my university goal... tats e oni place i wan 2 end up... huge dreams... i've seen e disappointed look on my parents... prayed to god... seeking for enlightenment... i noe wat i wan... wat i dream for...
mayb i've wasted my life e past 2 yrs... being a stupid fool... nth is gotta bring me dwn from nw on... take it or leave it... tired of everyting tat r trying 2 ruin my day... stupid tis n tat... wat if i plan to stand firm whenever sumtin happen? b a happy man? b sum1 useful in society... sick and tired of ppl hu dun really care... so b it... u're nt goin to ruin my day...
zzzzz... september... i'll b home alone... purposely stayed in sg while my parents go to thailand n c e baby... hafta take part of cheers cup... i also wana c e baby... sianz... end of yr then get another chance to c... by then she will b like so big le... nt as puny as wat i've seen during may... i miss my bro's family alot... every fun 2 b in thailand... c tat boliao thai kid running ard in e hse... i mean another kid in e hse... always watch e same episode of tom n jerry... nt sianz de...
my most upset period is when i get sum cans of beer to gurp dwn my throat... being sober juz sux... relax man... its ok nw... i've made it clear to myself... i noe wat 2 do... wat 2 sae... how 2 act... where 2 go... hu to treasure... when to start and stop... enlightenment

2006-07-22T11:47:00.000+08:00

lazyiness has seemed 2 gotten over me... i haven touched my blog for like 1 mth? hmmz... okay... i tink i betra update 1 here...
yesterday was my b'day... n it was quite fun n interesting...
i always call ppl hu drink alcohol in e morning crazy... juz b4 assembly... my s1 buddies n i drank some vodka... wifout knowing e concentration of alcohol... i juz took a huge gurp... next moment... i find it hard 2 stand still on e parade square... wats funny was aaron trying 2 drink for e 1st time n gt somehow "drunk" or sumtin close 2 drunk...
detention class was e boring stuff of e day... zzz... stupid teacher was so fussy... she kept demanding us 2 clean here n there... even strands of hair she also cn c... woot... wat sharp eyes she hav... pratically... i keep using e backyard of e sch as disposal... i throw all rubbish 2 e backyard... e trash bin was so far... so lazy 2 take...
then badminton practise... my partner for e next competition is gotta b linus??!!! i tink i shd train him more 2 adapt 2 my way of playing... then we cn work well on e court... badminton practise was really a surpise... i juz went to training... then my mindset was 2 quickly rush back home... juz 2 meet my friends for dinner... then e coach was quite smart... he dragged e training till 7pm???!!!! then ronald suddenly announce tat mr soh was outside wanting 2 make announcement... when e whole team walked outside... a cake pop out in frnt of me... lol... i was like... er... i was stunned ther for like 2-3 sec? woot... nice!!!
at nite... dinner wif my sec sch homies... went to fiesta 2 eat... food was excellent... bt price is nt... almost fainted when looking at e bill... bt took home a $20voucher... n many take aways... bt in e end... my friends n i finshed e take aways under my block...
was veri happy... had a good time yesterday... thx guys!!! all e strange ideas u all came out yesterday 2 celebrate my b'day... thx guys
other than tis... many tings happen during e time when i din blog... my granny fell dwn at home.. bt i din get a chance 2 c her in e hospital... bt sunday i'll visit her at her home... hmmz...hope she's fine...
mid yr exams were horrible... i really hav nth 2 sae bout it... once again... i gt a FFF again... zzz... bt both languages i managed 2 pass... beta start studying soon... or army i shall go... bt plain tok oni... i dunno when will i start 2 study?
there r many tings i shd learn 2 accept... learn 2 do... learn 2 giv up... learn 2 forgive... yesterday i had another slpless nite... tinking bout stuff i had done b4... saga n saga of stories... chapters n chapters of my own life... episodes n episodes of my own drama... surely no 1 wanted 2 b in my shoes last few weeks... so many tings tat clashed 2gether at e same time... my chacrter will always show e carefree side of me... bt looking back at e nonesense i've done... all e juvenile stupid boliao arguements i had created... juz over e failure 2 forgive n forget... they asked me 2 make a wish yesterday... bt i seemed 2 blank out... i also dunno wat i want... i juz blankly blow out e candles... i noe every yr i wish for sumtin... i nvr get it... n every yr... its almost e same ting... in e end... it juz all gt screwed up... i remember during my sec4 days... my closest friend dal, did smth tat really touched my heart... he noes wat i wished for, magically... he tried 2 help alot to make it come true... my naive charcter tat time was so er... i dunno wat 2 sae... bt i stil remember a particular incident wher i was really happy... bt anyways tis sounds like a stupid childhood story...
i dunno wat else 2 sae... i tink i shd treasure watever i hav... my friends, my family... every1 ard me... until i die... all is lost... in tis unfair world... where nth is judgemental... where many tings tat u tink is urs... n it tend to go 2 other ppl's hands... where looks, fame n wealth rules all...
lastly... i had a whole list of ppl 2 thank... sumtin like credits like tat... here goes... a huge list... ppl wif caps r really those whom i wana thank wif all my heart... wif all ur greetings n celebrations i really wana thank u all
aaron, jeremiah, CLARE, chuan, may, s1, RONALD, WANLING, LINA, rest of badminton, DAL, PAT, DREW, weilung , jiayi, edmond e noob, deyan, mingkuan, weilung, keehong, amanda, esther, arif( ngee ann, who juz wished me happy b'day juz nw), dominic( who tinks my b'day is 2day), shakatash( out of nowhere he wished me happy b'day yesterday)... i tink i covered every1 i hope... lol

2006-06-27T20:52:00.000+08:00

sch reopens n everyting is gotta b a new beginning... i heard of many tings tat ppl missed doing... one example is me speaking english e whole day... my friends were mostly chinese speakers... oni in sch i use english often... tan chuan had nt swore for e past 1 mth??!! clare is even worse... she claimed tat she had nt laugh for 1 mth???!!! lol... i dunno these claims were true nt... bt they sund intresting... miss alot all those ppl whom i spent alot of time wif...
mid yr exams r comin... seriously... i had nt started anyting on e exams still!!! damn... all e late nite world cup had forced me nt 2 study... too tiring...
hair check is tml... hmmz... been caught by mr chang for having a mop hairstyle... actually nt oni him... many other teachers also noticed my hair... after i went PE... my hair start 2 come dwn... all my styling n folding of my hair is wasted... after a haircut... i feel neater n more "airy"...
e teachers seemed 2 miss us alot... they seemed abit different when they took our lessons... they tried 2 joke wif us often... especially jason chen... his jokes r totally... nt funny... i dun really get wat he saes... bt he seemed 2 find his own jokes funny... hmmz...
zzzz alot in class these 2 days... chinese class zzz chem zzzz physics zzzz... my whole time table hav 2 b changed again... during hols... my morning is like erm.. 1pm? my bedtime is always at erm... 5am? everyting seemed 2 b so strange when i hav 2 change my personal time table n my "body clock"
"wats worse tat i cn sae... tings r beta if i stay" - helena ( my chemical romance ) tings i dun understand i dun really wana hear n believe... it juz kills my morale n it suddenly juz jolt my inner anger... it may gotta make history reinact again... tis kinda feeling may tel me tat e word "trust" is juz bullcrap... e rumors, all e crap ppl start 2 tel me... it juz distracts n wanna bring e fury outta me... if i really wana try hard... tings may get beta... if you r tinking of it... dun try... you cn end up being a total traitor... though u r nt PY's closest friend bt you will betray e man if you try... u might end up in e flaming eyes of e victim... e wrath of e heartbroken... e look in e eyes of e betrayed... juz dun try... nt even tempted to... tis mayb e angriest part of e whole of my blog... bt it is true... if tis mistake is commited... e real anger will b unleashed... angry does nt mean swearing... tat is immature way of showing anger... i juz dun wan my bad memories my bad past 2 reinact once again... e state of heartbroken... e state of feeling betrayed... e state of being a fool... e state of being useless... juz dun dare 2 try

2006-06-16T19:41:00.000+08:00

took a break 4 ard 3weeks... hmmz... nw... i'm goin 2 add a super damn long update...
e world cup fever has as gt into me... i spent my usual slpless nites watching soccer at MK's hse... i saw alot of spetacular matches n quite alot of lousy matches too... sumtimes my heart nearly jump out by seeing e way they play... go spain!!! show me e spainish nachos amigo( anyhow de.. i oni noe these 2 spainsh words oni) power!!! joaquin(spanish player... nt me) pls play ur best!!! let spain lift e world cup!!!
thailand trip was quite fun... i saw my niece there... really a special baby gal... bt most of e time we stayed at my bro's hse... i was abit bored ther... lucky my psp saved my life... it accompanied me 4 e whole trip... it saved me frm traffic jams... long distance travel... times when i cnnt slp in e hotel... though there was a TV ther... e shows r all in thai!!! tom yam goog(tom yam prawn), sawadikah(welcome), kar koon kup(thank you), keng(water), moo(cow), hong nam pu chai( toilet boy)... also learnt abit of thai... as u cn c... quite nonesense la... everyting i learn doesn't make sense...
my hands start 2 itch every nw n then... haven played badminton since i came back frm thailand... wat i always do is 2 take out my racquet n wipe wif a piece of cloth... zzzz... my friends
dun really play badminton... they r mostly soccer n basketball players... bt my friends r gotta get jerseys soon... quite cool... each of us has a diff no. & name... mine is proudly no.1 ... i was a keeper of e team... bt nw i play totally like sum1 hu doesn't noe how 2 play... bt they r nice enuf 2 reserve me e no.1 jersey...
zzz... my PW grp... no1 has made a move 2 ask every1 2 do sumtin 2 prepare 4 e project... it seems tat i'm e oni 1 in e grp hu is worried bout such tings... damn...
sunday, i'm goin go 2 e bbq tat weney organised... hmmz... its a long time i get 2 c both weney n weixiang... i wonder how they're doin... i dunno hu else is goin tat day... its like a long time no c sort of ting... e whole hols... i hav nt seen anyone frm MI yet... other than my badminton peeps... i wonder how every1 is doin nw... hmmz... 2 balance between world cup n tat bbq... i tink i'm gotta make a wise choice by goin 2 bbq... "this is for esther... i've lived tis guilt for long... i admit my reckless swearing incident is god damned stupid... i had a bad day tat day... n i wanna make tis chance at e bbq 2 apologise... i noe my temper was horrendous... i try 2 control it even though my temper gets over my head..."
3 weeks le... i wonder how u've been... been happy or moody... wan 2 c ur face... wanna c how u've been nwadays...

2006-05-27T11:22:00.000+08:00

i'm here waiting 4 e trip 2 thailand... b4 tat i'll post my last update b4 i go 2 thailand...
many tings happen nwadays... really many... yesterday juz took e GP paper... it was ok... bt e papaer 2 was really hard... sumtin 2 do wif jobless ppl... wat sia? i dun quite understand... i almost fell aslp when doin my paper... finally i finshed my AQ qns... i really fell aslp... my head was too heavy... too tired... too bored...
next, we went 2 play lan... it was nt a happy 1... many tings corked up in e end... jeremiah had 2 meet his gf... aaron hav 2 go along wif him... linus left suddenly... then oni afew ppl were left in e lanshop... alot of arguements were in e lanshop too... tis is a prob when diff ppl wans 2 ask thier friends along wif them 2 play...
i cnnt attend badminton camp... sianz... it clashes wif my thailand trip... i predicted it 2 b fun... its less of training n more of team building... its goin 2 b fun... heard frm rumors tat there might b a new captain... hu will b at e helm? i hope they choose sum1 skilled n b able 2 lead... for e team for e sch... bt anyways... i dun quite mind hus at helm next... i usually oni care 2 perform my best n make e sch proud... bt i really hope sheldon cn promote himself 2 captain... he has both skill n leadership... e others do nt hav both these qualities... they oni either hav skill or leadership...
they sae i've been too quiet n too moody e whole week... quite true actually... especially miah... he keep asking me n toking 2 me bout y i was feeling moody... i even quarrelled wif my friend mutalib... acutally he's juz too much... we already had a cold war 4 like 4 days... he's juz too much... bt he stil tinks i'm stil wrong... i may b stubborn... bt he had picked e wrong ting n wrong time to shoot me at... i oni cn sae he's largely at fault... or else i'll nt react so harshly at him... "talib... if u come across my blog these few days... if u wan 2 tok 2 me about sumtin... u beta dun add an innocent party inside our conversion... n ur insults 2 tat person is totally too much... do it like adults... tok like adults... i've less paitence in tis sense... e oni apology i cn giv u nw is tat i'm sorri 2 mention ur name on my blog..."
i tink my thailand trip will b an escape route 2 forget bout my problems 4 awhile... too many tings juz happened these few days... i hope tat i should b in a beta mood when i come back... n i cn solve tings 1 by 1... hmmz... i shall get a beta phone frm thailand coz its highly susidized by my bro... next stop... " thailand bangkok!!!"
" i dun wan 2 c u sad... 2 c ur smile is wat is goin 2 make me gald too... a great sacriface, ppl might tink... bt i dun tink so... its sumtin tat drives me forward... n sumtin tat i hope 2 c... everyday... everytime..."

2006-05-20T19:12:00.000+08:00

stil slpless nites... days of slpless nites... its so damn energy draining these days as many probs plagued me...
carnival day was quite fun... enjoyed myself... bt it seems tat i dun find mood 2 enjoy 2day... i myself dunno y i feel like tat... mayb emotional or sumtin... during 2day's dota warcraft competition... it seems tat i din pay any attention 2 e game... my mind was in a mess... i'm also e main guy 2 counter tat whole team... i seems tat i've brought my team dwn due 2 myself nt paying attention... seriously... i dun seem 2 figure out wat i tat bt it seemed 2 bother me alot n changed me 2day...
many problems 2 share wif bt i dunno hu 2 approach... dunno hu will lend me a listening ear... i always wanna tel miah or dom some of my probs... bt i cnnt seem 2 bring myself 2 sae them... words seemed 2 choke... mind is blank... thoughts r empty... oni recently i cnnt take much pressure anymore... totally distracted n stuff in everyting i do... some of my friends started 2 notice tat i'm always in a daze... juz like juz nw's dota match... i was totally stunned or stoned in frnt of e com n distracted... oni part of my mind is playing e game... e other part of my mind dun seem 2 noe wat i'm doin juz nw...
juz nw i hav a tok wif weixiang at e carnival... he asked me hows my studies... i oni replied " it sux"... he recommanded me 2 go poly tis yr... as he reliased tat i hav worries coping wif my studies... bt i told him tat i dun wan 2 leave MI... there r seriously tings tat i dun bear 2 leave if i leave MI... its like i'm destined 2 stay here... e class... my friends... e surroundings... my badminton team... u... i will miss lots of tings if i choose 2 leave MI...
i dunno whether u feel angry bout me nt... i always feel tat way... i scare tat my fear is back again n i will mess up everyting again... then even friends also will nt b possible... sigh... i dunno wat cn i do nw... i wanna do lots of tings... i wanna let u noe tat i choose u nt coz i'm greedy... coz i'm true n i really hav real feelings n i wun b like tat god damn farid... hu likes 1 then likes another 1 then another 1... treat every1 like his spare tire like tat... i sae i'll wait 4 u... 1yr has passed... another 10yrs also no prob...
mid yr exams r comin... 1st time in MI i felt veri pressurised by exams... i wan 2 study n promote tis yr... no... nt oni promote... i'll score gd marks... as i've said... i dun wan 2 leave MI... so a promotion is e oni way 2 stay in MI n stay afloat in e challenge 2wards e university...

2006-05-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

TJC 5- MI 0!!!
tis is e toughest match ever... its like singapore trying 2 beat brazil in soccer... how sia? nearly every1 scored ZERO for every set... 1st singles leoric 0-15 0 -15... 2nd singles dickson 0-15 0-15 3rd singles sheldon ?-15 3-15... i tink is a horrible score... 1st doubles gay boy n ah pui 0-15 0-15... 2nd doubles me and ronald 3-15 0-15...
wa... trashing sia!!! bt nvm la... wats over n over... MI has been knocked out of e 'A'div... bt at least we won 1 sch... SFMS... we almost win 1 match against CJC... 2day my performance is horrible... i gt reprimanded... coach wan me 2 play like yesterday... bt i juz cnnt seemed 2 play well... my performance 2day is rated F9... haha... actually nth much 2 sae... TJC is too strong... it seemed tat MI cnnt even match wif any player in their team...
nw we r facing 1 more problem... new players r comin in... potential talents... my "rice bowl" is in danger!!! i cnnt totally guarantee tat i cn play in e next competition... bt i will work hard 2 stalbalize my position in e team... nw i get 2 b a 1st draft pick 4 doubles... if new players come in... n i slack somemore... i will become e last draft pick 4 doubles sia!!!
2day victor soh treated us a meal @ soeul garden... fun sia!!! laughed alot... we totally made fun of gay boy 2day... he damn blur la... we say we hav training at sentosa... n he really believe... we asked him 2 bring badminton racket n he really intended 2 bring... LOL!!! i wander wat will he bring tml 4 sentosa trip... happy happy @ sentosa tml!!! coach comin too... uber cool la!!!

2006-05-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

CJC 5- MI 0!!!!
zzz... 2day every1 lost their matches... all e gd players r put against e doubles... bt dickson stil plays e last singles match... e singles players hu play r: "lampah" david, ronnie and "dick" dickson... doubles r yongjie&leoric... sheldon&me... e 1st doubles hav their weaker pt... tat is leoric... he is nt tat strong 2 take on e other team... his tennis strokes r used in badminton... it is nt quite feasible... so it sort of weaken e team abit... yongjie played well... beta than when he played wif me on mon... sheldon n me looked unstoppable on e court... they had a hard time attking us... bt unfortunately... we lost e match... 7-15 12-15... coach praised me 2day... despite me playing like crap e past few days... my adrenaline boosted by 200% suddenly i tink... it juz came n i totally played like sum crazy player hu cn cover alot of areas tat i cnnt do during training or recent matches... bt... they switched target 2 sheldon whom also performed well 2day... he cnnt take too much of e smashing as they expoited his weakness... gd match great fight... bt we lost... we almost gt e win.... if we play and put in extra work, we will... sorry... i promised u a win... bt i cnnt get any 2day... bt at least i'm v. happy 2 c u ther supporting... bt a win will add more joy...
tml's match... i dun plan 2 play tml... i plan 2 give up my 1st team seat for my reserves... "gay boi" steven, "ah pui" jun bin... i intend 2 let them play tml... they had watched us play 4 3 games le... i wana let them hav exposure... i hope i cn provide them experience... make them potential players 2 take our e senoirs... my "rice bowl" will of course b at stake... bt i will b happy if any1 of them cn become gd players n compete again in e next yr's games... btw... tml is against TJC... its e toughest match... a lost is expected...
haha!!! i'm waiting 4 mr soh's treat tml... he promised a treat at e end of e competition...

2006-05-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

tml is another match... its up against SMFS... a private sch... its an easy matchup... as analyzed by afew ppl... e 'A' division is nt as easy as wat i expected it 2 b... i'll nt underestimate their potential... i'll b second doubles matchup again... bt my team seemed 2 b a stronger team 2gether wif yongjie... we muz clinch a win... for e sch... for myself... for my family... for her... erm... n for elson hu always like 2 encourage me on my blog... thx ya? bt ah... i tend 2 miss all of his hockey matches coz of my training...
i reliased tat quite a few gd players comes frm a family background of badminton players... both my captain n vice captain came frm a family of badminton players... my family plays soccer... my bro was an outstanding goalkeeper... i, too had followed his footsteps of being a goalkeeper... bt e racquet seems more appealing than a pair of gloves... so i tried 2 play badminton n joined e primary sch team n MI team... bt i dun usually get my full support from my dad... he doesn't like me playign badminton... coz he dun tink i can play...
"its alrite dad... u will feel proud 1 day tat ur son becomes an outstanding player 1 day... enuf of tat criticism... my full potential will come when i report a win over a strong team 1 day..."
my bro came back frm thailand again... 4 e general election... he had told many stories bout how he had lived in thailand this recent mth wif a new born child at hand... i cnnt wait 2 c my niece at thailand at e end of tis mth... n tis thailand trip... i'm also goin 2 get lots of tings tat i wanna get ther... a new phone... jeans... shoes... new clothes... a new bag... etc... many tings...
hav 2 prepare mentally 4 tml match... it will b a fight tat we will perform...
" play wif ur heart n soul... play wif pride n honor... for myself... for sch... for my family... for her..."

2006-05-04T19:16:00.000+08:00

1st game of my 'A' div is nt a nice 1 for me n for MI... 5-0 is e score 4 MI against VJC... i shd had clinched my chance 2 win e match... i dunno wat is goin on in my head... i made an incredible save bt i also pulled a muscle in e process... my thigh muscle caused most of my match... 1st set is a tough fight... since yongjie n i cnnt beat them in terms of skill... we outwitted them... we did quite a few smart move 2 take them off guard... bt they r really gd... i gained alot of experience playing wif them... every1 frm MI lost 2 VJC... next is SFMS... a private sch... tat MI hav a chance against them... i'm goin 2 prove my next performance 2 those hu doubted me or supported me... i'm nt 2 b beaten so fast as there r more games ahead... bt inside i felt uneasy n sad... my training seemed gone 2 waste whenever i play 4 competitions... bt i wanna make e sch proud... my my family proud... make my friends proud... make u proud... btw... thx yongjie... he's always a gd partner... though i'm sumtimes upset tat he does nt turn up for training 2 play wif me... his words during my matches really boost my adrenaline( momentum)... its like instant boost... it makes me tink tat i must win e match... coz i wanna tel u tat i won e match... tel u tat i had performed in e match... i wanna tel u tat i've worked hard...
damn... piled up sia... hwk after hwk after hwk..... cnnt take it... PI... IRP file... maths... damn....

2006-04-30T15:03:00.000+08:00

my final test is finally here... "A" div is like "A" lvls... which i always dreamed of playing... representing MI... giving my outmost potential... 2 perform my best performance for ppl whom i really wanna dedicate my matches to... holding a racket, standing on e court, wif ur teamates n supporters looking at u... its sumting tat makes me wanna perform even beta... all e time used up on playing badminton... everyting altogether... its goin 2 pay it all off next week... bt my stamina is almosts gone... too tired 2 play... hope tis long weekend cn rejuvinate my energy again...
tough sia... 2 juggle my time wif my sch wif my JWSS homies... yesterday is e 1st time since a few weeks back, which i went out wif them again... although its juz playing LAN & soccer... its a huge lot of fun... reliased tat i dunno how 2 play le... soccer seemed 2 become more n more alien 2 me... sumore they r goin 2 make jerseys 2gether... haha... lucky they stil reserved my "no.1" jersey... damn nice... bt i haven seen e real ting yet... oni weeks n weeks of planning... tats all... hope they really make e real jersey... after my competitions... i would b able 2 join them again 2 play matches again...

2006-04-22T20:12:00.000+08:00

argh!!! my head is hurting!!! dunno wat happen these few days... grr... thursday was quite funny... kana caught 4 hair length... mr chang sent me back home... actually he caught me 4 quite a few days le... bt i was relectant 2 cut... i had a 4 hr break... haha... went home 2 play PS2, testing out my new games tat i had bought frm m'sia recently... bt e hairdresser cut my hair till quite short at e front... bt left my back long... lucky ivan lim approved my hair... or else i will waste more $$$...
if i'm nt wrong... ronald n i r selected 2 play in e "A" division... hav 2 work extra hard these few weeks 2 prepare 4 my game on 2nd may... gt lots of scoldings n compliments... they sae i was always distracted... bt it was abit true... i was nt always focused on my game... in e game, i hav 2 take e back, which is abit new 2 me... coz i hav 2 support ronald in attking while he def e frnt... hav 2 clear my mind soon... or else e distraction, will take my mind out of e game n i will nt play my full potential... actually i myself also dun noe wat distracts me... i feel tat my mind is blank, my face has no expression, no feelings at all...
i reliase tat my temper had gone bad these few days... many occations tat i totally snapped this week... scolded many ppl... gt pissed off veri easily... mayb is e pressure built due to training... mayb is e probs i hav nwadays... mayb is my results... mayb its due 2 sumtin tat i dunno... i'm really confused by wat i'm angry at... tis may link 2 my distraction i hav... sigh... i keep tinking bout sumtin... tings tat look simple... bt i tink in a confusing way... ans r hard 2 get... tats wat i tink...

2006-04-13T19:52:00.000+08:00

the badminton club is getting messed up day by day... the idea of sch team is being misused... it is being looked as "huevers has e best rapport wif e teacher... hu wins e post 2 play 4 e sch team" nobody noes my achievements in e club... last yr MI opens... hu is e 1 hu fought frm e 1st rd 2 e qauther finals representing proudly e "MI badminton team", even having an injury? hu's e 1 hu represented for e pilot pen cup n gt a result tat wun as embrassing as a total trash? hu's e 1 hu proudly train hard n trys 2 take part in every training ther is? my efforts gone dwn e drain!!! coz of oni 1 guy... mr darren chan... he has totally no business in poking his nose into e team selection... he told me tat i'm nt selected in e sch team n asked me 2 b e camera man for e badminton team!!! shd i rather train how 2 use e camera or play for e team sumore? its e coach's final decision in putting e final list of players... y shd darren chan poke his nose n reshuffle e system? is it becoz he dun like ppl of sum sort? those ppl hu r left in e reserves hav abit of problems sumhow... 4 me... i'm a slacker... bt in e end... hu produce results? slacker or sum ethusiatic guy like ronnie? i let dwn alot of ppl hu hav faith in me... they told me tat i'm goin 2 succeed in playing badminton... last yr... i did miracles... i shown 2 many ppl tat i cn play badminton...one unique figure... 1 player wif an incomparable fighting sprit... tats wat ppl sae bout me... i've lost lots of "face" too... haiz... will there b a miracle in badminton? will i b able 2 tolerate anymore of darren chan's nonesense? or shall i juz quit?
step aside frm badminton... 2day's CIP day was a meanful n fun day... we brought ppl frm e bishan home which is catered for ppl hu are intellectually disabled, 2 e esplanade... i saw their smiles... they r happy 2 b in e esplanade... they had nt been there b4... really a rare chance 4 them... i brought along a dude named bing hoe... he's abit quiet... i cn see tat he is happy 2 b there although he dun smile much... we played lots of relay games... seen e cuteness of them playing games... they really play like children... aaron miah n i also became kids 4 a moment... lol!! we jump thru hollahoops like seals... sumtin like circus like tat... damn fun!!! everybody was thrilled la.... lol... many tings happen la... lol...
after tat miah, mayu9(sounds robotic), clare n i went 2 long john silver 2 eat... lots of tings la... funny sia... lots of lame tings n we even pluck miah's white hair when we were out of topics... haha... he scream like siao la... haha...
after tat miah n i went 2 join MD ziwei they all 2 play LAN... woot... damn fun la... i n jeremiah were in opposing team... bt of course... he won la... bt it was a great match... everybody played well... nth 2 comment...

2006-04-02T10:24:00.000+08:00

lets sae yesterday is rox my socks day... many tings 2 do yesterady...
morning... went 2 k-box... damn... i tot i was late... ther were ppl later than me!!! they said tat we shd meet at clementi at 10 00... i reached at rd 10 40... panic sia... wher every1? i tot they went already... zzz... i started calling every1.... in the end... every1 start reaching at ard 11 30... zzz... lol... managed 2 pull mr banana along wif me... bt he abit sianz la... coz we share e same room as weney n weixiang... he immediately lik no mood 2 sing la... oops... my sinful act... u all shd noe y... he kept asking me y bring him 2 k-box... he damn slpy sia... actually i cn read his mind la... he feels sad seeing both weney n weixiang... tis is wat friends shall b like... if u noe him well... felt sorri 4 him...
back to topic... jasmine, esther, weney, weixiang, mr banana n mi were present... er... its nt an og k-box... jasmine is queen of e mic... she hog e mic like almost every song... i cn count e no. of songs i sing la... 3!!! all anyhow whack... anyhow sing... lol... i listen 2 eng songs de la... chinese songs i oni noe a few... i cnnt juz sing e same songs everytime i go ther... zzz...
went play pool ltr at doby gaught!!! met elson, labina( finally i remember her name or else i will always call her "niu" lol), ronald n amanda at paradiz centre 2 play pool... fun la... bt i lik kana curesd... every ball all hit sides... nt 2 e hole... actually goin 2 far east i tink bt dunno y stayed at paradiz again... then went 2 arcade... played world combat wif ronald... walao... he pro sia!!! he single handledly cleared alot of stages... i oni like stayed 3 stages wif him n died... i tink i cnnt b a marksman in e army sia... mac after tat... quite fun too... lots of nonesense la... 4gt most of e details... bt overall fun sia!!!
lastly... i went soccer wif my friends ltr in e evening... played in my jeans... bt cnnt do much... missed alot of shots again... tis time i cnnt even whack e ball!!! coz my pants restricts my movement!!! actually i din do much... oni ting i did is to tok crap on e field shout shout ard...
2day was abit sianz la... accompany my homie patrick 2 suntec city 2 pass a friend sumtin... lol... he dunno which is e convention hall... hav 2 drag mi along 2 show him e way... finally his hard work paid off... he fold stars 4 like dunno how many weeks le... juz 2 giv his FRIEND... quite sweet la he... then went 2 funan IT mall 2 boliao... walk 1 rd then went home le... so damn tired... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2006-04-01T01:11:00.000+08:00

finally!!!! common test is over!!!! e stressful part is 2 study n do e papers... lets start frm GP... 2 words: anyhow whack!!! tok lots of nonesense on my paper... anyhow de la... chinese... wat "dun act smart" compre? also anyhow whack!!! maths: haha!!! all thx 2 fergus!!!! i noe how 2 do... 1 qns!!! chemistry "luan luan lai"... physics... b4 tat i remember PV= nRT... go into e exam room... anyhow write formulas le la!!!! overall, my CT is totally screwed up la... ahhh SPA was horrendous sia!!! many ppl sae my ans seemed 2 b correct... bt anyhow whack also cn meh? crap la... i finshed 30mins b4... nth 2 do... drew cartoons on my paper!!! too much warcraft dota!!! drew a wolf tat totally looks like a dog la... e lab attendent saw my drawing n shook her head... zzz... let down andrew e most man!!! taught mi til he vomit i stil dunno how 2 do... lol...
2day is fun!!! went back 2 e "gd old days", as wat miah always said... e og14 4bros were in e lanshop playing dota alongside wif alton( shortcake), dominic, clinton, aaron!!! damn fun la!!! whole lanshop is like ours like tat!!! we shout... piss off another grp at e other end... lots of tings la... tok lots of crap... whenever we "killed" our enermy, we make alot of noise... nw i dun hav much voice 2 tok too... haha...
tml go wher sia? so many grps asking mi 2 go sumwhere... most lame is 2 go singapore poly wif my dear homie patrick 2 RENEW his PASSWORD? walao... tink 1st la huh?

2006-03-17T14:48:00.000+08:00

e week's full of nice tings... many tings happen n many news came out of nowhere...
went for competition on monday... we lost... 15-2, 15-7... it was nt a gd score... i tink its largely due 2 mi... bt nvm... i had a great exp... we had fun too at e competition... tis lost also granted mi someting else... extra 2 days at chalet!!!
chalet was fun... i tink ben will regret bringing his ps2 2 chalet... we really hogged e playstation 4 a v. long time... its like a 2 grp tingy... we din't join e rest 4 e mini games... they kept asking mi 2 play bt... erm... i tink tat playstation is more appealling...
i saw many ppl whom i've nt seen 4 a long time... i'll name them 1 by 1 here... those whom r v. important... those whom dunno who r they erm... paiseh... tis section is largely delicated 2 my homies...
eugene... whom is known forhis sulky face smiled alot during e chalet... i had past differences wif him... 4 some extremely nonesense reason... we gt along quite well these few days... i play wif him games too... hmmz... tink he's ok bt... smile more ok?!?
next... chen xiao qing!!! ex-top student of JWSS... i had a great time being wif him... u'll laugh till ur head drop!!! we played risk 2gether... he cn win a troop of 6 wif 1 soldier!!! wat e?!? i nvr mixed wif him much... bt e chalet made mi reliased tat he's quite cool 2 b wif...
next... caryn cheng... she was like a horror 2 some when she came 2 e chalet... i was also affected too... heng ah!!! thank god!!! she din stay... 4 my case... she was my eye candy in e past... many years ago... i juz dun 1 2 c her... tings had passed so long ago...
lastly... fiona... she kept budging 2 our room... juz 2 c her eye candy la... ahyo... juz last nite... she sat beside jianbin when he slpt... whoa!!! if he's mi... i'll b scared 2 death!!!
clement chong!!! he's definately a sucker!!! tok lots of nonesense 2 mi tat i dun seem 2 b intrested... whoa!!! joined SP singing contest n gt into e 5th rd? i tink i cn get into e finals if he do so... he kept asking jiayi of his singapore idol acheviements... he's good... bt clement bullshitted his way thru 2 tok bout his acheivement? he bullshitted bout everyting we all sae... he tried 2 tok 2 all of us... bt wat we respond is..." yeah", "no", " alright", "really"
these few jwss dudes... gav mi a great change of impression of them... bad 2 good or vice vesa... good 2 bad... its nice seeing them...
i dunno is tat linked 2 my update... if she really saw wat i said... i dun noe how long i'll carry on like tat... although i've promised u tat we will juz b friends... tats all... bt i found out tat its damn hard 2 keep its promised... some dudes may tink tat i'm crazy... stil wanna wait... bt i'm true 2 wat i'm saying here... i guess i'm e oni 1 here whom is e willing party... immediately changed e msn nick straight away when u hav doubts bout it... bt e pain inside stil hurts... i've always put u at e top... really treasured u alot... although i noe... everyting is nt goin 2 change anyting... u dun hav any feeling 4 mi... nw i dunno wat 2 do... any suggestions?

2006-03-11T11:12:00.000+08:00

sometimes i cnnt juz prejudice e whole grp juz 4 a few black horses... i reliased tat e class is quite fun 2 b wif... fun day had gav mi a great idea of e unity of a great class... bt anyways... wat e hell is an allegy 2 kerosine? campfire was fun... bt i din get 2 participate... due 2 an allergy 2 kerosine? huh? wait till i go c a doc then i'll noe was tat... bt heard frm mr chang tat i will b a clerk in e army if i hav allergy 2 kerosine... bt its a strange ting tat had nvr been heard b4... tings r getting stranger by days... heard tat thers ghost in MI building??? i've been 2 darker places in MI... bt i dun c anyting... those ppl hu tried 2 run away frm e campfire said tat they saw... wow... or they juz imagine tat thers sumtin ther oni? its stil a msytery... i really tink they oni tink too much... ppl in s1 change too... biggest change was fergus... nwadays he tok more crap than mi... mayb we trumatize him too much... nwadays... he tok 2 mi more... n e others too... he no longer feel nervous when he tok 2 us... tats damn nice...
if tings r clearer... ther wun b so much commmotion... tat lead 2 a prob tat is almost unsolvable... ther wun b anger, sadness, confusion, reluctance 2 care... it lead links back 22 1 ting... misunderstanding...
theres tis song ringing in my head during e campfire... you're beautiful by james blunt... i dunno y bt i wanna sing tis part of e lyrics, "You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you." i haven saw tis side of her 4 so long... i juz wanna go 2 her n tel her tat she looked excellent tat day... bt kerosine!!! so many ppl... too shy... tsi morning i was listening 2 tis song again n again... too bad i cnnt find e atttachment 2 tis blog... or else it will b beta... i'll nvr close tis blog 4 e whole day...

2006-02-26T19:53:00.000+08:00

many tings happened this week... bt its really sianz... seats in o5s1 had been reshuffled... i've been separated frm my usual grp... been placed wif sum1 i've nt been communicating well... e gal hu i've been sitting wif, ray, is a fun gal... bt i really hav no common topic la... its far away frm wat i usually tok... grr... nw i gt away frm my seat n went 2 sit alone... sumhow it feels beta sitting alone... sumore e back seat is gd for mi too...
13th- 22th of march is pilot pen cup... if i'm nt wrong... yong jie n i had been playing well as a doubles pair... mayb we cn make it in e competition? stil... 22th is JWSS's concert day... i wanna c wat standard has JWSS became... it really reminds mi of my performance at e victorial theatre... wif e choir... we made a great performance... many memories had been packed there... e stage feels more like home... bt... i dun hav enuf talent n luck 2 perform on e stage once again... nvm... i stil hav badminton 2 rely on... i stil cn play badminton... how far will i soar in tis sport?
problems problems problems... ya ya ya... problems then i'll try 2 solve rite? ur problems make me seemed like a councilor? i may tok sense, which may give a key 2 solve ur probs... bt all of u dun nid 2 come again n again 2 ask mi 4 help... i'll juz giv u all e same old response... if u all approach mi wif e same probs... simple lil' ting... is oni ur own tinking... ur own mindset... nt other ppl's fault... end of advice... so piss off...
mayb its retribution... or mayb its sumtin else... i couldn't love u as u love sum1 else... it seems like an instant replay of wat happen last time too... i turn away a nice gal... as i like sum1 else ... which end up a waste of time... wat sia... its really like a video tape tat has been rewinded... oni tat e charcters had been swapped... it really feels horrible within... i noe how tat gal feel nw... mayb its retribution... my homie reminded mi tis incident a week ago... he told mi tat its a copy of my incident la... wat sia? zzz... 2 wait or nt 2 wait... seen many similar incidents too... my homie patrick had a tougher problem then mi... n he really feels bad inside... i really dunno wat i will do next... 2 wait or nt 2 wait???

2006-02-15T19:41:00.000+08:00

zzz... sch's sianz... actually doing nth... every lesson = stare at blank space... was noisy till physics lesson... = stare at blank space... sometimes u all cn tok 2 mi till i juz stun ther 4 nth... no ans = stare at blank space... even badminton match too... sumtimes i really stare at blank space... missed lots of shots... make schboy mistake... lost almost all my skills... y stare at blank space???
its finalised... at least tis is 1 ting tat sumtin great 2day... i'm partnering wif yongjie 2 play men's doubles in e pilot pen cup... we sparred wif e coach n ronnie as a tryout... as a demo of wat will happen during e cup... we lost bt it was a magnificent score... 14-17... 1 set 2 a finsh game... will we perform during e cup during e march hols?
yesterday was even more sianz... went out wif 5 guys n 3 other gals... total was like 9? we juz walk aimlessly along e singapore river... ok la... they really hav fun ther la... bt i feel tat the r abit turned off by my "super sianz" face... bt they really cn skin mi la... they share e price of everyting wif a imbalance price... zzzz...
heartbroken.... into thousands of peices... sianz

2006-02-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

2day my class had introduced sumtin new tat mayb will build up class bonding... a dunno wat valentine's day tingy... it goes like tis... random names will b drawn frm a bag... then on feb14th... each person is expected 2 give e person whom he/she had drawn frm e bag... a present tat does nt cost more than $10... wat it is according 2 a person's choice n whether e person noes e other person well or nt... i've played tis b4 in sec b4... seems like tis ting had came back again... oh man... tis is damn sianz...
ah... pissed off day too... another pissed off day... mr jason chen was v. pissed 2day... actually i was a lil' at fault... din hand up hwk... bt i was absent on tues... lots of tings happpen on tues... a new section 4 maths... plenty of hwk... many tings... bt wifout learning wat hav been taught... how m i goin 2 do tat section of hwk? chinese teacher too... another hwk prob...
ayah... where 2 go on sat? MD asking... ideas?

2006-01-31T23:28:00.000+08:00

e new yr is a great 1... lots of happiness n lots of laughter... n hong bao!!! it was great recieving hong baos n it feels even greater being wif my friends!!! my homies i cn sae...
lets sae yesterday... yongjie, ronald, linus , julie, larence came 2 my hse 4 home visiting... my mum prepared lots of tings 2 eat... tats more than wat i expected... i tot i hav 2 call a special delivery or sumtin 2 settle lunch... then we had a game or 2 of blackjack... next, we procced 2 mr soh's hse, then 2 mr darren chan's hse, next, we visited julie's hse... at last yongjie's hse... every hse we visited gav me a warm feeling... sumtin tat is similar 2 how i feel at home...
then 2day is shatis( MI) n fiona's b'day(JWSS!!!! happy b'day!!!! went 2 both ends of s'pore 2 celebrate their b'day... shatis is tat bedok... fiona is at jurong... oni a lil' time 2 rush back 2 e other end of s'pore... tiring sia... bt its fun at both sides... it was worth it being at both parties... happy 2 c my sec sch ppl again... ppl whom i dun meet often... they din change much... they stil look e same n they behave e same... full of rubbish as usual...
my homie, patrick, kept keeping tings 2 himself... after a long 3-4 hr tok... i understand wat he's so stressed about... he wans a best situation 2 solve his prob... tis gal he like... would choose a decision.... 2 avoid him as much as possible... tat broke his heart badly... he simply diagree with my every suggestion... neither he wanna give up... nor he find chances 2 mend it... i dun really noe wat he wans... a lengthy 2yr... if he continues tis again... it will strike e 3rd yr... i always treated him as my bro... my homie... it seems tat time will heal everyting soon... take care man my homie!!!

2006-01-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

ahha!!! chinese new yr!!! happy new yr 2 all of u!!! i'm 18yrs old tis yr... so i cn do everyting tat cn b done during tis festive season!!! drank wine... bt oni a lil'... bt i felt my head is like spinning... gambled a few rounds too 2day... won a lil' too... bt tis new yr is like a zzz day... my mum n e other elders all gamble like dunno wat sia... i won $8 then ran away le... 1 of my family members lost a hefty $900!!! wow... dunno hu's tat 'lucky' guy sia... i camped in front of e com n play warcraft whole nite... bt my uncle has poor internet connection... n e game is nt original!!! cnnt play wif other ppl online... sianz... red packets r like erm quite alot la... i juz walk around... then ppl will giv mi red packets... dunno which is my uncle, which is my aunt, which is my couson, dunno who is who... every year... 1 more new member 'pops' out frm no where... 4 generations of e 'yang' family, which is my mum's side was present... i'm 1 of e youngest of e 3rd generation of e family... so i always lead e other nephew n nieces... bt i dun tink i'll lead them in e right way... always anyhow teach them tings de... haha... always bully 1 of my cousons... coz he's short n fat? erm... tink so la... i always pat his head 4 nothing... lol...
tml my badminton team is coming 2 my hse 2 bai nian... or 2 visit... ahya... my translation is like crap... grr...
my parents r goin2 prepare quite a few tings for them 2 eat... bt i dunno wat la... bt there r other destinations 2 go... where will it b next? wa... bt how come they noe i will surely approve them 2 come 2 my hse de ah? strange... nvm... tml i'll b a great host... bt i tink yong jie's hse will b available next too... heehee... will ther b XO again? or will ther b sumtin greater than tat?

2006-01-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

i'm goin 2 play wif glory for e badminton sch team!!! i'm gotta play my best performance for e upcoming event... e pilot pen cup... actually i dunno wat e hell is tat competition... it has a "ku-ku" name... nvm... my partner is stil a mystery... mayb it will b yongjie or ahdip ( i dunno how 2 spell his name)... if my partner is yongjie, my job will nt b too hard... if its e other guy... i may hav a tough time... he's deproving nwadays...i may hav 2 support him... i'm so lazy on e court... will i b able 2 make it? nvm... wif deligence n determination... i will b able 2 shine!!!
2day i went 2 work again... waa... 2day damn slack la... i juz stand by e pillar... i cn earn $25 le!!! actually i 2day in charge of e order lists... e oni tings i do... r 2 bring food 2 an elevator... stand ter n cross out prepared food... n pass e chef e order list... lastly get e costumers 2 pay for wat they eat... how saes singaporeans r greedy? i saw a couple 2day hu ate gd food... i gav them e recept... n they told mi tat e cashier had miscalculated e total cost... i quickly rushed 2 e cashier n told her tat she had miscalculated e total cost... tinking tat sumtin's really wrong... she calcultae again... then she told mi 2 ask them whether we had added e price of a coconut by mistake... i went 2 them again... they told mi tat they din paid 4 e chilli crab they eaten!!! they asked mi 2 addd e cost inside!!! normally... ppl will keep quiet whenever they pay lesser than they eat... n make noise when they pay more than they eat... wow... i salute them!!! they dun throw singaporean's face!!! if they aren't singaporeans... i hav nth 2 sae...

2006-01-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

2day is another lame day 4 mi... sianz... so sianz... PE was ok... running n running n running... i reliased 2.4km is nt tat tough as i tink... bt i have yet 2 conquer it... 12 min 23 sec... a poor performance... a fail... sianz... mayb i've put on lots of weight or sumtin... i haven take my height n weight yet... 3weeks le... haven taken yet... ayah c how la...
badminton seemed different 2day... training was nt tat tough... dunno wat happen? mayb e PE has a lil' effect... played 3 sets of games 2day... won 2... e 1 which i've lost is quite a nice match... i always 4get ppl's names... my partner did extremely well... i reliased... reliased i'm getting back my skills... bit by bit... i'll have 2 get back my skills n improve it thrumendously then i cn secure my position on e "A" team n get seeded into e "A" divsion badminton tornament tis yr... i really wanna do e sch proud... 2day i din get scolding frm tracy... heng sia... everytime i play ah... she'll scold coz i din do e correct move 2 hit back e ball... almost every training nwadays always gt lecture frm her de... kk' a step forward 2 improvement... 2day we gt new coach!!! i wish he cn get a gd impression of mi... labeled as " good attitude n good player"... come on!!! strive!!! then i cn put on my showstopper performance!!! go go go!!!
2day damn strange la... dunno y i so sad sia... wat had stuck mi? 4 no reason la... cn someone tel mi? bt i tink no1 noes la... i always tink of complicated tings... if i cn put all tis time tinking into my studies... i cn get back my glorious days at JWSS... where i was competing 4 my 1st postion... i dun look like... bt i was a shocker... a black horse in JWSS... who gt a 8 for maths... then shut up my maths teacher wif a A1... after mr chang's tok juz nw... i wanna do e same in MI... come out as a black horse...
i wanna follow my brother's footsteps 2 NUS... nw my family had put e torch on mi... as my brother had been thru everyting... frm studies 2 his marriage... 2 starting a new family... by e age of 30... i also wanna get or b beta then my brother... whom i always looked as my hero... i always feel proud when he do sumtin great... bt i'm sitting in front of e com doing nth... i have yet 2 acheive anyting... i'm goin 2 set a goal 4 tis yr...
tis yr... my new year resolution... is to own every1 in studies... i wun 1 2 b e stragling guy whom hangs himself ... erm... theres 1 more... bt oni my homies noe bout it... i wun 1 2 post it here.. hehe

2006-01-15T00:36:00.000+08:00

spent my whole day at home listening 2 music!!! wow... "mavelous day" 2day... damn pro ya? tml i'll own e whole hse!!! my parents r goin 2 m'sia... i've nth else i would like 2 buy le... so din plan 2 tag along wif them... ahya... juz let them go ther " pat toh " ( erm... date in hokkien?) i go ther also damn sianz... yeah!!! tml i'll chiong my ps2 games in peace!!! at least they'll nt nag nag nag 4 1 day...
hmmz... tink thailand will b e next destination 4 mi during my hols!!! unless sumtin is able 2 change my idea... tinking of cheap food... cheap lifestyle... cheap everyting!!! juz go ther wif a few hundreds of dollars then u cn life lik king ther 4 a few days!!! tats damn cool!!! really cool!!! it may boost my possibility 4 goin ther!!! bt... when's "A" division 4 badminton?
intensive training is really comin soon... wif a new coach next week mayb? we will improve thrumendously... yong jie asked mi 2 pick my partner for doubles match... does tat mean i'm e 1st draft pick 2 play 4 doubles sch team? nw lots of focus is put onto ronald as i had picked him as my partner... he's closer as a friend 2 mi... a closer friend will tag well wif u beta... i've 2 improve my agility... as i'm always slow... frm how julie trashed mi last yr... i reliased tat e greatest weakness is my speed... too slow... i've my height... strength... a bit of skill... bt no determination... no speed... no work rate... improve soon... i want 2 be a showstopper 4 my sch... whom will bring MI 2 greater heights in badminton!!! tats y shawn michaels, e "showstopper" is chosen as my msn pic... i'll b like him...
hmmz... grr... dun pester mi 2 b quick... i'll soon take action... tings cnnt b pushed so fast la... sis... kk' soon soon... i noe i've delayed 4 lik a yr or so... e time will soon come... relax ya? bt i've sumtin 2 ask u too... remember remind mi... after u read my blog... k, sis?

2006-01-14T00:08:00.000+08:00

wanna smash everyting in my path... grrr... overruled by e fact tat i've 2 stay up overnight trying 2 understand some shit... at 2am... daryl ( 1st 3 mths guy) called mi on my phone telling mi tat he's unltimately stressed... naa bei la... destroyed my dream... caused my lack of slp... during e DOTA match... i was already half aslp le... grr... during every single class... i was fighting 2 stay awake... bt finally during maths period... i fell into e hands of e lullaby of mr jason... i was half awake too on his lesson... everytime i wake up frm a slp... i cnnt get back 2 slp... so tis made mi stayed awake 4 like v long... b4 i cn fall into deep slp again... in addition 2 tat... e badminton training conducted by e captains had increased in e additional fall in fatigue... nw... oni 10% is left 2 let mi sit in front of e com...
tings r always planned ahead... at may or june... i'll b sent 2 thailand 2 work their wif my bro... bt will it hav a gd pay? many ppl will nt hav tis rare chance 2 work overseas at tis age... 17++ n working overseas... wow... bt language n lifestyle diffenrences had allowed mi 2 take a second thought... i cnnt speak thai... i dunno wat 2 do ther... at a lost... bt shall e salary b an attractive 1... i'll take e job... or esle it will b another waiter job journey during tat hols...
Daryl... jamie... denny... n emily had crashed MI 2day... they stil look e same though i had nt seen them 4 like a yr... i cnnt chat too much wif them... bt seeing them really brings back e memories whereby we spent time during e 1st 3mths... them being e ultimate " pontang masters"... stil as cheerful as b4... bt i feel distant frm them... dunno wat 2 sae... nvm... there might b another chance 4 mi 2 c them again? yeah... so life stuck in MI is so sianz... bt y do they appreciate it so much? i shall find a reason 4 tat...

2006-01-11T20:01:00.000+08:00

"coolness aura" is becoming bigger n bigger in o5s1... y shd ppl act cool? cool is in born... nt acted out... so mr jun long... mr rommance... stop being an ass... rommance is really getting in my nerves these days... really noisy... i dun like his damn philosophy... so out of point... extremely big attitude too... i offered him a drink... he told mi 2 go away!!! wat sia? wat hav i done? rommance... tats nt cool... stop it... as 4 junlong... haha... same old ting again...
last few days... my bro came back frm thailand... gt lots of trash 2 tok 2 him sia... so boring 2 b e oni guy at home everyday... haha... he's so nice 2 sponsor mi $$ 2 buy games... originl de... haha... dun nid 2 save anymore $$$ 2 buy new game... my new addition dungeon siege2 is a showstopper!!! it totally rox... killed most of my time playing it... its always a nice ting 2 hav a family reunion... its a hard ting 4 mi always... oni once a month... i get 2 c my bro... so guys... if u hav any siblings... treasure them... when they r gone 1 day... u'll miss them alot... really... if u dun feel tis way... u will 1 day...
2day funny sia... i kanna caught n suspended from sch for lik 2hrs 2day... y? becoz of my hair... e hairdresser told mi tat my hair cn surely pass my teachers de... sianz... n in addition... i hav 2 spend a hefty $14 for a single haircut!!! actually its oni a trim!!! argh... waste of $$$ sia... mr charles actually wanted 2 giv mi a chance... bt i wanted 2 pontang PE... haha... ppl go PE lesson... i go eat prata at coffeeshop.... haha guys!!!! u all hav a nice time there in e hall? naughty is naughty... bt i'm a gd boy man!!! wif respect n loyalty 2 every1 worthy...

2006-01-07T01:19:00.000+08:00

ah-ha!!! "1st day" of sch 2day!!! basket!!! lots of basket tings happen 2day... some teachers R SHOCKED 2 c mi 2day!!! haha!!! they tot i've been kicked out of sch or sumtin... mrs meya was staring at mi wif big, sharp n " scary" eyes... asking mi y m i in o5s1!!! lol!!! i wun fall so easily man!!! haha... mr jason chen was our maths teacher!!! walao eh... sianz... i heard stories of how gay he was n stuff... n i reliased he was worse than MR LIAU CHEE MUN!!! at least mr liau isn't as AP as mr chen... he totally owned mi wif juz a few words... i shutted up 4 e rest of his lesson... i fear males maths teachers... after i encountered e monsterous kick by mr melvin(JWSS) tat totally destroyed a CPU... coz of my gd friend KH hu bloody hell pissed him off... ever since... plus bloody kuku bird ms ho( although ms bt she's lik 40++++) yrs old kept sending mi out of class in e past... maths teachers r horrendous creatures... argh!!!
after sch... we realiased a deep secret... oni miah n i found out... about mutalib... erm... bt i cnnt sae... ltr mutalib behave lik aaron then there will b huge trouble liao... 2day he behave like aaron... funny sia... kept quiet 4 e whole phy tingy... wun even utter a word 2 us... kept copying notes... n look blankly at e OHP... haha!!! looks really lik aaron... its gotta b nominated 4 e O5S1 losers award!!! lol
buy shirt buy shirt!!! i wanna buy shirt!!! lots of tings i wanna buy... shirt... belt... jeans... tml queensway shopping... tis place is totally like budget kindda shopping centre...nt like far east plaza... its e far east of e west!!! sounds stupid though... buy shirt buy shirt!!!

2006-01-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

1st day of sch update... day of smiles n lots of crap
back 2 millennia institute... bt lots of funny tings happen... every1 is quite e same... same face... same hairstyle... same physique... same everyting... nth much hav changed... wats diff is xingyi changed his hairstyle... fergus is super cool... we hav a new principal... he looks lik mr charles!!! wif curly hair as fringe... funny sia his hair... saw lots of ppl in orientation... i oni saw 1 junior frm JWSS joining MI... tat brought mi back 2 my memories of my 1st 3 mths... e oni JWSS guy in MI... sianz... haha... nw my junior, Shireen, wil hav 2 spend her 3 mths here... orh... so sad... gd luck gal... hope she cn spend her days ther nicely... hope she remembers my advice... ( hope no1 ask mi coz i will kana whack if any Millenian noes bout it)
S1 is ok... its full of laughter 2day... sabo many ppl... mr junlong n mr aaron became prime target 2day... its been 2mths since i disturbed them... same old tings same old jokes same old insults... going back 2 sch c friends is nice... wat sucks is tat i hav 2 study n do exams n tests!!! wat e hell!!! abraham... thx 4 taking my lousy post as class rep tis yr... i m gald... bt i will nt 4get my vow last yr... u might hav a hard time tis yr as revenge 2 wat O5S1 had done 2 mi... i tot is sum1 esle... nvm... so come on!!! i'm in e hse!!! bt in account u were frm O5S8(PAE) i spare u a lil' of my sabo... haha... prepare man!!!
@#$%^&*!!!!!! liau chee mun will continue as my chemistry teacher tis yr!!! i've no comments bout tat...
additional post: ya... paiseh ah.., in my "bang-bang" gt a sister... i regrad her as an elder sis... she's been a great motivation last yr.... thx ya?

2006-01-01T12:12:00.000+08:00

new yr... new beginning... everyting is goin 2 start all over again...
2005 is a gd yr for mi... wif joy, anger, sadness, confusion, lots lots more...
tis update is a sum up of wat happened during e yr 2005 n wat i wished 4 e coming yr...
e early 2005 is a fantastic 1... i went 4 e 1st 3mths course in millenia institute... ya... friends always tel mi i'm always stuck wif schlife ... i've nt tried working b4... hmmm.... tats true though... i've meet e forever united n lovely class... o5s8... it was a great class... although i cnnt join them 4 outings during these days... i miss them alot... daryl, imran, nicodemus, ethan, athiyah, madina, lots lots more 2 mention... they r a whole lot of fun... i remember e cookie tingy... e sentosa outing... e classes we attend... e days wher we "pontang" classes... lots lots more... s8... u rox man!!!
april... i was admitted into MI again... tis time wif a diff feeling... i'm gotta settle down ther n study... OG14 is wat lightens mi up ther... its e longest living OG ever in MI... wif unity... they survived as long as any1 cn remember... then comes o5s1... e class i hav 2 stick wif thruout my 3yrs there... i was appointed as e class rep ther... e highest student post n e suckiest post in s1...
friends stick by thick n thin... brothers stick by u till death... my homies r e best ever found... they make u laugh, solve ur probs, accompany u when u're down... everytime i dun noe wat 2 do 2 reward them or 2 repay their kindness... thx drew, dal, JB, DY, KH, MK, KL, daryl, specially u patrick... u're e best brother, best "a-bang", best homie i cn meet in my life... my MI homies too... jeremiah, aaron, ronald, yongjie, ziwei, lots more 2 say 2 them...
wrack havoc in MI... tats wat i, jeremiah n aaron had done in sch... its fun... bt it had brought a bad name 2 my grp... hmm... every teacher had been angry bout us... i hope tis yr's teachers will nt hav liau chee mun... tats all...
lots of regrets in 2005 too... my greatest regret is nt 2 accept ngee ann's offer 4 my course 4 multimedia... grr... i dunno wat e hell i've been tinking this yr... i really tink i've been knock on my head... cn someone knock my head again 2 "balance" it so i cn tink beta? erm... tnk dun... ltr i become a vegetarian... no no no...
2005... i've known a gal whom i reliased tat i hav 2 treasure... i dunno wat 2 do... all a mess 4 mi... everytime i meet a gal i fancy i will nt noe wat 2 do next... i oni noe tis quotation frm my homie, dal, which goes... " if a gal noes tat u lik her... ther will b a gap soon after she noes bout it" its true... bt 1 part of it is wrong... i've 2 take e 1st step in everyting... nt juz sit ther n wait... nth will happen... my words will mess up n i will tongue tie in front of her... e song attached 2 my blog is 4 her... " here wifout u" by three doors down... i'm nt lik e other guys... i'm truthful in wat i said here... my feelings r true too... grr.. i dunno wat 2 sae le...
yesterday... i celebrated countdown at my workplace... i worked at a restraunt in sembwang... its a place close 2 e sea... cooling breeze... beautiful environment... nice ppl ther... we celebrated lik hell after e function... we played around wif leftover spray cans... watever cn b played ther... n jugs n jugs of beer r free 4 us 2 drink... met lots of new ppl ther... ppl ther r nice... being a waiter ther is v. nice... 2day is my last day of work ther... i've 2 wave gdbye ther soon n start sch...
i hope 2006 will b a diff n more beautiful yr... i hope every1 will hav ther dreams come true... mine too... n all thx 2 those hu had greeted mi 2day... happy new yr 2 all of u!!!

2005-12-20T16:51:00.000+08:00

haha... at last!!! Nee Ann poly and Singapore poly had gotten ther hols... tink my misrable 2weeks of hols will nt b much of a erm... misrable hol??? tok much of hols... its been a week last week... many tings had happened last week...
1stly... congrats 2 larence aka larry bird 4 moving 2 a new home... although he might nt b able 2 c tis update... i'm gotta say its a nice bbq session ya? although i din eat much... ( it sounds strange... as i always eat alot...) bt saying stories... n toking cork rulez tat day... then ronald, yongjie, tracy, julie went 2 taunt at my hse... my hse was quite in a mess in e end... my parents were awoken again n again... oops...
nw my parents were aware of my night owl habit these few days... i oni slp after three n wake up at 1pm... haha... i fear tat i cnnt adapt 2 e sch hrs 2 weeks ltr...
ha... i'm gotta look forward 2 e coming sch days... i would lik 2 noe which unlucky guy gotta take my position as a class rep... wats new in MI... wats gotta happen 2 e ppl ther... wats gotta happen 2 O5S1... how lucky could i b next yr in MI... wat achievements could i get in sch next? could i get @#$%^&* teachers lik liau chee mun??? anyting under e sun... hmm...

2005-12-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

teamwork vs experience vs skill... which will allow a team 2 win against another team in any sport??? i've proven it 2 b teamwork... tis DOTA ( or warcraft 3 game) had made mi reliased e importance of teamwork... Wigan football club had been strong throughout tis season in e english premier league... Osasuna football club had proven strong in e spainsh la liga... All thx 2 teamwork... i kept watch of how tis team had won, or rather trashed my team in DOTA... wif great leadership, superb plan, excellent teamwork... wif their skills n experience which were deemed as inferior 2 my team, they managed 2 push my team 2 defence n banish my team in less than an hr... so skills wun b such a strong factor in everyting... so DUN tink u r strong then u cn always win in everyting... 1 new ting i learn in life...

heroes die wif fame... cowards die in shame... baddies die horribly... is it true??? or is it oni true in dramas??? heroes get picked on frequently... bt they will hav 2 sacriface almost everyting 2 achieve sumtin eternal... at last they die in god-like status... cowards run... they escape frm everyting tat may allow them become hero-like... baddies own everyting... he has everyting in e world... bt he will die wif tings lik vulgarities added 2 their names... they lived wif reputation... mostly waried of... bt they die wif reputation... mostly cursed on... haha... learnt lots of tings nwadays... mayb i would wanna b a baddie... haha... learnt tis on dota too... nvm... tis is crap...

chey!!! basket... hav 2 come home 2day as there is no ovenite stay in sentosa 2day... oni i n ronald agreed 2 stay... bt wat e heck??? 2 ppl fun meh? btw, it was fun as tat day... although e male captains din come... we enjoyed overselves...

2005-12-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

ppl hu r offended by my previous update... hey man... i'm sorry... bt tis is oni an observation tat is made by mi... its a frequent sight tat ppl update their blogs lik tat...
haha... initially, it was training 2day... bt it came out as no training... so went to play pool in clementi... reliased tat my skills had deproved alot... super off-form... y sia??? mayb i din get 2 play it alot these days... oni won a match out of 4 2day... paired up wif ronnie... tink tat coz i paired up wif e strongest player then i cn win... e other series of matches were wif ronald... i cn say tat my fault is at large during those matches as i cnnt b as accurate as in e past... where i cn use my "trademark move" anytime... which is where i put my cue behind my back 2 strike e ball...
then ltr in e day... went 2 e pasar malam near my block... went there 2 eat, tok cork, lots of really nonesensical tings there... those hu came were ppl frm e badminton team... sadly yongjie n sheldon cnnt join us as they were overseas...
tml, i'm goin 2 hav a night overseas... in sentosa!!! tats overseas after all... nt in mainland singapore... i'm i right??? goin 2 taunt there really 4 a night... hope it really feels lik e times where i was in patu pahat wif these grp of friends...
lots of funny sickness n injures plaugued mi these few weeks... stupid cough... is so strange... i oni cough when its cold... then e injury on my left knee just gt worsen... i fear tat i became lik 1 of my friends, eng seng, hu injured both his knees resulting in permanent injury... hey... i'm stil young!!! i would 1 2 play badminton 4 millenia intitute... continue playing soccer, just lik in e past... nw, i've 2 wear a guard whenever i've 2 play soccer... shit la... wat luck!!! sian sian sian

2005-12-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

tis update mayb super confusing... coz it isn't goin 2 make any freaking sense 2 any1 coz i'm oni juz toking crap, if u tink so... juz read n 4get...
for 1 and 1/2 mths... practially juz spent my days waiting, eating, playing, slping... haha... quite meaningless actually.... bt i've sort of spent it quite ok... bt i believe ther will stil b more intresting tings ahead tat will b waititing 4 mi...
i've found out sumtin bout blogging... ppl tend 2 enjoy toking how miserable they r, how angry they r bout certain tings... haha... tats wat i used 2 write too... i tink... if we passed e days well... we dun nid 2 update at all... 4 mi, i dun tink i hav anyting nice 2 write actually... n ppl hu keep tings 2 themselves too... they reliase their anger on e blog... bt tat beats keeping it inside... i really tink tis update will affect ppl too... bt tats my obsevation... frm my previous updates... n many other ppl's too... 4 mi... i've been keeping everyting inside too... imaginting tings all the while... tinking i'm freaking useless... a little setback... i'll fall lik dunno wat... bt actually i din really try... stil waiting 4 my so called "chance" 2 go... perfect chance will nvr come... perfect chance is when u create 1 urself... nt others... so no matter wat... i'm goin 2 grab every chance tat i cn 2 go 4 it... i'm nt goin 2 make e same mistake... waited 4 lik 9mths... enuf!!! i'll start my engines... n take a chance soon...
confusing rite??? read n 4get man... coz my blog nids 2 b updated 2 make it look nice

2005-12-04T08:41:00.000+08:00

cn't really get 2 slp last nite... oni slpt for an hr or so... stupid coffee... caused mi 2 lose slp n get tummyache... tis new blogskin is created wif hrs of staring... actually oni 4 an hr... its totally far frm wat i've made as a blog skin in e past... such an early update... early in e morning... goin 2 m'sia again 2 buy tings ther... actually i'm goin 2 tag along wif my parents... since ther's no LAN gaming tis week...
1 more mth 2 sch... wat e hell??? wifout knowing... 1 mth has gone... grr... tinking of it makes mi feel extremely sian... nvm la... juz 2 plan it nicely... in e end... it will b a fruitfull mth... enuf of my bullcrapping here... next stop, johor

2005-12-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

tis will b a great roundup 4 lik around 2-3weeks??? lazy 2 update e blog... lazy sia... rather play games n go out...
2 weeks ago... went 2 m'sia for my overseas training trip...it was fun... everyting is nice ther other than 2 tings tat made e spoilers... e hotel room sux... bt i cnnt complain much... its a budget room for a budget price... i found out tat i dun hav 2 bring $$$ ther 2 attend e training... food n lodging r provded by e team... dun really hav time 2 shop... e oni ting i bought ther is a bag... sian... training ther was extremely tough... 4 a guy lik mi, hu hav extremely low stamina, cnnt take alot of hard work... bt wat 2 do??? its part of training... hu ask mi 2 eat so much???
celebrated pat n drew's b'day last sat... i planned 2 giv them e best they hav... bt they wanted oni 2 play my playstation... wat a strange way 2 celebrate a b'day... since they dun 1 2 go anywher... bt i really hav 2 giv back sumtin greater in return by standing by mi whenever i hav any probs... no matter is schwork, personal probs, watever, they played a great part in my entire life...
yesterday... went out wif e badmintion team... it was great... we actually went ther wifout planning or stuff... in e end... it came out fine... so lesson i learnt... juz bring ur friends 2 a place wifout tinking... it will b fanastic as a result...
lots of plans ahead in dec... lots of tings i look forward 2... i've 2 spend tis remaining 1 mth fruitfully... friendship bonding... hav fun... lots of stuff... when sch reopens... its gotta b a gung-ho attitute... coz i'm goin towards my ultimate dream... 2 go back 2 jurong west sec 2 teach ther... if i cn't make it in MI, how cn i make it towards tis dream??? e 10 tings listed muz hav been done before i die... ambitious??? tats gotta b e way a man shd b...
btw, * jeremy, been a long time since we parted in MI... wanna meet 4 lunch or sumtin???*

2005-11-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

holidays... dun tink i had spend it wisely... spent my time at home watching vcd... watching sequels nt doing anyting else... hols is oni spending $$$, staying at home n waiting 4 e new term... tml... i'll b spending my week in m'sia... training camp... tats e oni last ting i'll hav 2 wait in tis holiday... i wanna work after i cum back frm ther...
i juz found out tat there's a nonesensical guy stalking in my blog... offensive ya??? i dunno wat hav i done 2 make him angry bout mi... let mi hav 1 word for him... "childish"... he tinks tat tis will make mi feel angry... yes... i'm annoyed bt nt angry... so, if thers notin u cn do other then spam ppl's blog, then go put a pacifier in ur mouth... i dun tink he understands tis... tat means u r notin bt a child

2005-10-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

many days hav gone... worries building up... wat will b my future b??? will i spend my next yr in MI, as a yr 2 student??? i dun 1 2 anounce 2 my friends tat i din make it... i juz 1 2 say 2 them... look... i've made it... i've already told my HT 2 watch mi on promos... hope... i really hope i cn promote wif S1...
yesterday... i saw lots of JWSS ppl goin 2 nite study... hmmm... ther 'o's comin... wish them gd luk... hmm it brought back my own past experience when i was anxious bout my 'o's... e sense of urgency... tinking of my future... JC or poly? hmmm... goin 2 ite studies...
reflecting my past... my buddies or brothers... whom shared joy n woe wif mi... they were ther... hols... i'm planning 2 spend more time wif them... rather than oni weekends... at least they r truthful about tings... we din get tis unity when we were in JWSS... after departure... we get tis unity...
arts exposure is e last ting i would 1 2 put effort in, or rather e oni ting i would lik 2 do e class as a class rep... i admit i did nt do a gd job... as mr yew said ther's a reshuffling of classes... will my friends b channeled 2 another class??? cherish them... coz they may leave anytime...
when will i c ya again??? i dun 1 2 sit at home tinking bout tat... i've wasted many chances in e past... after i reliased my mistake... u r nt there... i gt lots of lecturing... lots of regret... lots of mocking... ther's a gap... i dunno wats tat... or m i imagining tings again??? bt i 1 2 do sumtin more... sumtin more than wat i'm doin nw... lost i m nw...

2005-10-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

nice!!! wat fun we had 2day n yestersday!!! 5 ppl came 2 my hse 2 taunt... we made it a mini chalet... my suddenly became another LAN shop or gaming centre!!! 2 coms n a playstation operating all nite!!! weixiang, weney, esther, ziwei n MD came 2 my hse... lots of nonesense... all gaming... other than mi la... fell aslp after watching them playing games... next morning... went 2 JP 2 hav breakfast... then went 2 acrade... after tat... went back 2 my hse 4 e second round of gaming... after tat, dinner then badminton...
lots of nonesense during badminton... every1 anyhow play... n we all tired e "bangala smash"... which is used by a bangadeshi player whom smashes e ball by swinging his racket in a strange posture...
tis is e kick off of e post exam fun... i wander wat will b next??? many plans will b stacked up during my post exams days... 1stly... my bro's wedding... then malaysia badminton trip... then several enrichments... ther may b chalet on dec... shall i find a job??? hmm...

2005-10-13T17:51:00.000+08:00

finally!!! after all e waiting... after all e working hard... after all e late nite slp... after all e overnite mugging... exams r over!!! chem paper 2day was hard... dun understand... finshed it in 2hrs... e earliest in e whole exam hall... 4get it la... its all over!!! looking forward 2 other tings... many plans ahead of mi...
my buddies went 2 chalet... at coasta sands... lots of them called mi last nite... so happy sia... 2 c them back... they sraight away booked my weekends... surely e same old ting de... basketball n stuff...
last nite... ziwei, sis, weney n rommance came 2 my hse 2 study... bt its lots of play n toking nonesense actually... n ziwei almost burnt my com by playing it for 11hrs!!! e bubble craze is on... as u cn c frm esther's blog... after e addiction from tues... we blew them once again frm my block... nw... my hse's corridor is full of stains left by e bubbles... wats even funnier is tat we bluff tat felicia is in my hse b4 he came... weney acted as felicia on e phone so tat he could come n join us... lol... he really came speedily... lol... 2day my hse will b e fun pace again... they r coming again... 2 watch movies... hmmm.... i wander wat will happen later???
Qns: if she suddenly see my blog... will she noe wat n hu i'm referring 2 in e last few updates??? hmmm.....

2005-10-11T19:36:00.000+08:00

disciplined... aren't i??? although e exams had nt end... i had 2 update... coz many tings happen these few days...
Promos... shd i say great or horrible???? actually horrible... i had tis sudden drive of doin well tis promos... looking at e top 10% board... n my friends' consistent best wishes... i will 1 2 do well... coz they 1 mi 2 finsh exams fast... so i cn go out wif them again... all of them r having holidays... n nw... they having chalet... i wonder wat is happening down their... i nvr stayed overnite wif them b4... i wanted tis chance alot... bt... sigh... again n again... all corked up by my stupid sch time table...
sat... after long long time in thailand... n lots of time taken off 4 lots of tings... finally... a family reunion in s'pore!!! my bro n sis in law came back in s'pore... i was dragged along 2 take a family photo in a photo studio... then dinner...
i miss e times where e 6 crappiest ppl of og14 ate in e AL-almeen... where r they nw??? i seems tat i n miah were always wif TC n aaron n e s1 guys... MD n ZW... i dunno... they join us too... bt nt so much... engseng... i really dunno where e hell he go le... weixiang... he cn b excused... coz he's always wif weney... so i dun blame him... then rommance... he's really a changed man... nt e retard i always noe... i always put my og photo in e maths book... when i open it... i saw many tings.. n recalled many tings... e days when every1 oni noe each other... e chalet we had... whereby most of us were there... e days when i will hav lots of topics wif them... nwadays... i c them walking ard... here n there... having their own lifes 2 live... having their own social circle... i miss them alot... bt do they tink alike???
do i hav a prob or do they hav a prob??? god gav them eyes... wat r they 4??? heaven made them a brain... tink!!! tis is 4 ppl hu i'm trying 2 tok 2... "ppl cn change... a thief cn becum a gd guy... watever past views u had on me... espescially e tinking tat i'm a beng... hey... look man!!! if i'm i will hav nt risen so far... so if u all hav any views... tell mi... dun b so stupid... wat u all did is u all ask a messenger 2 tel mi or u tok behind my back... i wun b angry unless e rumor u all spread is nt true... watever tone or way of speech u all gav is lik toking 2 a dog... so... b truthful!!! n stop bossing mi ard... its freaking irritating... I JUZ WANNA LIVE!!!"
if she noes tat i'm sincere... if she noes y i'm always disappearing... i dun 1 2 affect her due 2 my freaking notorious reputation... if she noes tat i'm concerned... if she noes tat even my life... i'm willing 2 sacriface...
lastly... 1 more promo paper!!! chemistry... finsh tis paper... then fun begins!!!

2005-10-04T18:56:00.000+08:00

tick tok... oni 2days 2 exams... it will b quite long 4 my next update 2 come out... hmmm.... actually, 2 b speak e truth... i oni studyed n mugged physics... n a little of chem... maths... dunno... chinese... i cn oni use my sec4 knowledge 2 complete e paper... anyting la... i will try 2 work hard... no... extremely hard... 2 promote... 2 prove myself as e best... 2 prove 2 those sucky teachers out there hu doubts mi... tis is 1 opportunity for them 2 shut up once n for all... mr liau, mr daniel chong, mrs chong... all those hu always doubt mi... hmmm...
wow... aaron broke his record... he din vent his anger 2day... hmm... nice... we try 2 make him angry... bt he responded," satan tel mi 2 b angry, i say no!!! i'll kick him in e name of jesus!!!" nice trick 2 counter us... lol...
let promos pass!!! i 1 2 play DOTA, maple... play soccer, badminton... turn MI upside down!!! create havoc wif my buddies... especially patrick, dal, many more hu r waiting 4 my exams 2 b over so i cn go out again... come on man!!! i 1 2 finsh tis bullcrap promotion exams!!!
wa... really a big bodoh nwadays... adds lots of "loser pts"... 1stly... date c wrong... so paiseh sia... bought amanda present n passed 2 her on e wrong date... next... din prepare sally's present... then 2day... button came off my pants... nt juz came off... its "shoot" off... next... do physics... all wrong... ah!!! coz y??? do e S paper qns... tot i so clever... din c e labels beside e textbook... wat more??? bt i cnnt beat aaron... hu has leg cramp when he slpt during lecture... sumore "steam" during his slp too!!! haha!!!!
guys... next update will probably resume after exams!!! stay tuned.... lol

2005-10-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

wat sia!!! nice day 2day sia... oni ting bad is tat i kanna punished by my HT( mr yew) 4 toking in class... studying period 2day at library... woohoo!! fun!!! din really study much la.... oni covered 2 chaps of chem... n dynamics 4 physics...
hmm... b4 studying... we went 2 alameen...( hav i spelled it correctly???) ate lots of prata... i was wondering... y miah, aaron, mutalib, junlong... cn finsh 5 prata?? i cn oni eat 3 oni... zzzzzzzz... sumore... erm... nvm...
then on study period... funny sia... aaron was angry again... then ther was tis nipple pinching "fight" between miah n aaron... miah was e 1 hu kanna e most... then aaron... being e bigger guy... punched him repeatedly... walao.... painful sia..... i n mutalib taped it down on handphone... hope talib send mi e video soon... then hehe... i'll post it on my blog... then finally... "philosipher" rommance broke up e fight n scolded us by goin too far... driving aaron into rage...
mr chang ah... so nonesense... kept on disturbing bout my hair... wats so nice 2 disturb??? short wat... so??? so funny meh??? bt in return... i disturbed his "funky looking" fringe... curly fringe... then he sabo mi back by telling mi 2 cut my hair again.... wat a nice finale..... grrrrrr.....

2005-09-27T19:10:00.000+08:00

2day... e real unexpected happens... e 3 hu r mess ard in class finally sat down n really study!!! aaron, miah n mi went 2 e library again... 2 study... covered lots of physics 2day... erm... its nt oni a boring... keep quiet n study kinda ting... its also quite noisy la... bt we really had studyed lots of tings 2day... learned lots too... really lots... lots of laugther too... bt erm... we cnnt laugh out loud... coz we r in e library... erm... nice revision... tml... again??? 1 more practise on physics... haha... watch out!!! e 3 of us r goin 2 make it big in e promos!!! watch out mr chang!!! ahhh!!! stil gt mr daniel chong!!! hu always spy on mi n miah... watch out!!! although we mess up s1, we r goin 2 make it big!!! b such a gd student 4 a few days more... after exam... we r goin mess up s1 again!!!

2005-09-25T20:01:00.000+08:00

tick tok tick tok... wasting time sumore... promos drawing near soon... always tinking myself as a smart arse... grrrr... going 2 andrew's hse 2 study... clarify everyting i dun understand... wat chemical energetics, electricity, binomial theorem... e hell wif all of them la!!! i'll master them in weeks!!! erm... oni days... tml in sch... i shall b a gd boy... listen 2 revisions... its really important... then mug at home... after tat... its paradise!!!
oni sad ting i face 2day is tat i cnnt attend e JWSS chalet which is cumin up on oct 10- 12... miss another 1 again... 1st 1 is during my 1st 3 mths... then another 1 also during 1st 3 mths... tis 1... during my exams... cn i attend any other chalets wif my buddies???
jian bin's b'day 2day... had a celebration... its a classic basketball then eat cake celebration... after last yr's dal's b'day... every other celebrations r lik tis... suddenly saw wei lung wearing RAYZ jersey... tot of e gd old days where our team, RAYZ ( although an amatur team... it brings buddies 2gether) played against other teams... its gone nw... i stil remember my own no.2 jersey... wif big words " joaquin" on it... kept deep inside my wardrode... lots of tings goin on wif tis disbanded basketball team... its e past...
MI... also many tings tat i miss... everyday after sch... surely 2 go sumwhere 2 play de... could tis happen again after exams???

2005-09-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

money woes... i've 2 make myself look lik shit 2 lend $$$ frm my buddy...
dunno la... i should??? or shall i nt??? lucky he's nice enuf 2 lend mi... i rarely ask 4 extra $$$ frm my mum till tis yr...
tink i've really tot too much... tat metamorphasize myself into " chao ah beng" in e past... is tat an illusion??? i ask MD... he reply mi as, "u're stil as gay as ever..." its e mindset i hav... too much depression... pressure adding everyday... everyday... i put nonesensical pressure on myself... worry about shit... exams... friends... school... teachers... practically every shit under e sun... 4 so many weeks... shit appears on my blog... as u all cn c rite here... ppl kept on saying hey..." jia you"... tanks jasmine anyway... oni ting is a idoit tel mi 2 go n die...
play maple story!!! dun sae its childish... stil pulling ppl frm my jwss friends 2 play... o5s1 is growing big on maple... guorong, miah, aaron, jasmine, weney... rommance( s2)... patrick is helping mi alot on e game... although he always say: "bodoh... study la" he stil dragged mi 2 play...
studyed chem 2day... bt argh... wat e hell is giagantic structures??? @#$%^&*!!! dun understand la!!! how 2 go exams!!! andrew... promised 2 teach mi 2day... went 2 perform... argh... went home n slp in e end... wat sia??? wat will happen 2 my maths??? dun understand anyting in class... @#$%^&*!!!

2005-09-23T17:49:00.000+08:00

erm... messed up... tis is how i discribe my ife nwadays... i had said it a billion times...
teachers came 2 mi... asking mi about my slackish attitude... all doubting my potential of promoting... especially mr liau... cn he pls shut up??? let mi show him my potential in e promos... he beta go eat his shoe if i get an "A"... high target rite??? i'll prove it 2 him... doubt doubt doubt... so many doubts frm so many ppl... shut up la... doubt here n doubt ther... i had about enuf!!! grrr... i hav no mood 2 do all these tings... promos... i really 1 2 promote... do it 4 myself... nw i dun care about top 10% or anyting... i 1 2 promote... every1 pls shut up n stop doubting mi... tats e most provoking ting 1 had heard 2day... i haven blown up yet... wait till u all had unleashed my fury... then u all will c... nw i'm on e edge... of getting purturbed...
tired... confusion... anger... sadness... all mixed into my head... lost... always... always a blank in my freaking mind... no one noes wat i'm tinking bout... they juz poke rite into my weakness... poke rite into wat i'm facing... sae sumore... my pride is broken... actually wats pride 2 mi??? notin... all e strange looks... e ignorance they giv mi... e pin point... e gossips... e " wat e hell does he 1" look... e "cn this guy disappear" kinda facial expression... argh!!!

2005-09-21T17:11:00.000+08:00

2day's assenbly... an acapalla grp has came...2 sing 2 e sch... although they failed 2 appeal 2 e audience... i loved it... 1stly... i miss my choir performance... i always wanted 2 go back actively 2 JWSS juz 2 perform 1 last time... i dun wish 2 play sum badminton in sch... i would 2 perfrom more... even in my poor voice rite nw... sumhow... my voice is gone... saw e tenor singer juz nw... i was lik him last time... hitting lots of high notes... nw i get comments lik my voice sux... dun go high... 2ndly... they sang "my love" by westlife... tats my 1st solo song... during my sec sch days... whenever i'm sad... i sing it... i believe... if i finsh e song... wifout any distraction... i will b able 2 release watever sadness i feel inside... sadly... i nvr finsh e song... other than tat mini performance i had tat time...
nw... is "my love" by westlife goin 2 cure??? caused a mess... i dun care wat other ppl tink of mi... if she really change her view on mi... no matter how i've protrayed myself in e past... i really dun 1 2 b e next banana(guy frm my class)... been seriously outcasted... if time reverses... i'll reverse watever wrong i've done... i'bve nw became a bad man... wif oni vulgarities in my dictionaries... if 1 chance... if u oni giv mi 1 last chance... i'll treasure it... change a beta mi again.... e mi in e past... e 1 hu many ppl dun hate... e mi wif relatively no vulgarities... oni smiles...

2005-09-19T18:21:00.000+08:00

happy b'day ziwei!!! haha... went 2 cafe cartel... ate lazagne... so pai seh... b'day boy treat mi 2 it... shd b mi hu's treating him... ayah... nvm la... happy 2 c e 1st 2 get a gf frm my gang... wei xiang!!! all e best ya???
banana... tis guy frm my class... he's really e 1 hu's e stress these few days y he becum lik tat ah?? ppl r strange nwadays... i always hav a little phobia wif him de... so wat he change due 2 a gal??? hey... i'm facing e same problem as him ok??? such a shit he's been... how cn o5s1 be united if he's lik tat??? back 2 normal la... banana!!! strange ppl frm tis strange world again... hmm...
hey.., when will cold war end??? or is it me hu's fighting oni... or is it oni my imagination??? i swear i will b always strong... weixiang... lectured mi also juz nw... erm... i hav feelings 4 her... if she dun reliase... sigh...
bt of course my chram wun work... i'm a fatty... how cn a fatty win a gal's heart??? erm... streotype myself again...

2005-09-16T19:56:00.000+08:00

basket case... my temper worsen... until lik shit... u cn c frm my blog alone... how many vulgarities hav i put in these few days?? how many hav i scolded in front of every1??? fierce mi has appeared frm nowhere... wat sia??? really no sense of gentleness these few days... nvm... tats part of life... every1 pls pardon my temper these few days... totally freaked out....
study 4 exams!!! promotion is my goal... name in charts is my target 4 tis yr... improvement is my hope...

2005-09-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

walao... 2day's damn freaking suay...
my hair... hopin 2 keep it long... mr ivan lim caught my hair... nw... tis bush of mine is 2 b cut soon...
freakin shit... lots of freaking shit happens 2day... oral... ayah... dun understand la...teacher tok wat i also dun really understand... ayah... dun care la...
all of u hu reliase tat i'm diff 2day... dun ask wat happen... really really moody... juz take it as i'm having "mood swings"... ok???
Joycelyn... tanks man... u hav said alot 2 mi... although tis isn't ur matter... even toked sum sense 2 mi... nt e she mo i usually noe...
life's corked up... so sianzzzz... argh...
the undertaker's goin 2 take mi... it sounds so freaking santanic... it has a meaning... again... juz dun ask y... argh...

2005-09-14T20:05:00.000+08:00

wat happens had happen... reversing in time is almost impossible... i dun 1 2 face once more of cold war... i tot it will b different... tings will change... nt 2 my fears... nt 2 wat i always fear of... or hav i made a mistake all along??? hurt by tis sudden change... everybody cn change... a 180 turn is such a crappish truth 2 handle... i hav 2 handle it once again... its one last time... wifout reason... wifout any trace... 180 turn... it sounds too msyterious... too wierd... a 180 turn... totally strange... wif my own capablities... i cnnt handle it... i cn oni do wat u all call as a "beng" way of handling tings... sit down n tok... i'm nt a beng... bt tis is e oni way i cn do 2 work out wats wrong...
u r wat i'm goin 2 tok about... its a strange ting of y i was behaving strangely... stare at blank space... nt knowing wat 2 do... wat 2 sae... stare up in e sky... begging 4 answers... bt really... if i get sum freaking ans... i wun b sitting down here 2 sae about my grief... it feels so sian nt noeing wat happen... my prediction is true... sumting is goin 2 happen while i'm away... really... tis uncontrollable situation... appears in my life... again....

2005-09-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

whoa... yesterdays' ming dong's b'day... 17 already... celebrated in sch... haha... damn funny sia.. mingdong kanna hit by 2 huge plates of cream!!! sis hit e cream on his face till he's whole face is full of cream... weixiang also kanna... double punishment... haha... he choose 2 take e cream on his face rather than weney... how sweet sia... ming dong ltr treat us 2 pizza hut... also damn funny sia... lots of nonesense stuff goin on... too much 2 sae... hehe
hmm... hmm... 2day's ok la... actually 1 2 study in macs wif TC, miah n MD... bt er... din get 2 touch any book...

2005-09-10T11:33:00.000+08:00

hav 2 plan 4 promos soon... andrew is teaching mi maths... tis IJC guy has gt "A" in maths... so i cn study wif him... other than maths... his other subjects r around my standard... chem... i noe oni a bit... phys... i dun even noe which chapter mr chang stopped at... wat a disasterous moment 4 mi...
my bro n his fiancee is cumin 2 s'pore 2day... nw i'm hiding in my room... dunno wat 2 do later... argh...
i'm facing sum backtrack in time... dunno wat happen between my friends... my JWSS side... stil e same... no change... oni they having exams at e moment... wats problematic is my MI friends... i dun even noe wat happen 2 them... miss sch alot... cn't wait 2 go back MI... although lots of tings r nt e same as b4...
sacrifaced alot... i dunno wat more i'm goin 2 lose... i gotten a united o5s1... which i'm always hoping 4... bt lost alot more tings tat mean alot 2 mi... ting wher $$$ cnnt b bought... if i cn travel back in time... i really 1 2... i've lik a plaugue 2 u... if u tink likewise... pls sae... i've always failed in tis shit... scored "F" in tis part of my scorecard... god pls tel mi wat 2 do???

2005-09-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

singapore!!! finally touch down... finally in singapore... dunno wat happen these few days back here in s'pore... my friends... dunno wat happen 2 them... hmm... hav 2 catch up wif watever happens...
wa... i heard tat this pair is goin 2 b 2gether... wa... i disturb disturb also cn b 2gether... tink i cn go open a matchmaking agency eh? after spending 5 days in thailand... trying 2 adapt back 2 s'pore style... i'm nt goin 2 write a jumbo summary of wat did i do ther... oni ting i cn sae is... wooohooo!!! fun!!!
i'm goin 2 b an uncle!!! zzz.... my bro's getting married n his fiancee is pregnant... my parents r goin 2 hire a maid soon... argh....
miss all my friends while i'm in thailand... miss e confrencing... e phone calls... cumin 2 my blog writing nonesense... my buddies, pat, drew, dal, leonfish(keehong)... miah, MD, weixiang, ziwei, engseng... sis... stil gt my s1 ppl (aaron, TC, jasmine who always flood my blog, weney, many many more) stil gt MR CHANG!!! n finally her.... zzzzz!!!!!!

2005-09-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out wif mingdong... sis... ken... weixiang...weney... n lastly ziwei...
we went 2 cineleisure K-box... sang lots of songs... i n ken hogged e mic alot... sang till lik mad... especially "somewhere i belong" by linkin' park... both of us anyhow whack e lyrics... also cn sing tat song... i also took alot of chinese pop songs... such as my most hated... "lao shu ai da mi"... e MTV was bit sad... erm... ya... thers stil an MTV wif sally lookalike inside!!! haha... despite e noise tat we make inside e room... weney managed 2 slp... wat sia???
pool... tats after K-box... where ziwei joined us... team clementi emerged as champs!!! we beat team S4 n team of weney n weixiang... nt really on form yesterday la... dunno y la... ball kept on missing e hole... bt sis also had alot of credit(clap clap)... ah... weixiang almost did someting obscense... he poked a lady at another table wif his cue accicentally... his face was red after he knew tat he poked e person...
2day... wat a day... kanna punished by mr daniel chong... i seriously tink he oni noe my name n miah's... kanna kicked out of e lecture hall... so fun... i n miah kept on toking crap outside... we saw mr ivan lim walking outside e lecture halls n we mangaed 2 dodge frm him... we also composed a new song... which is delicated 2 rommance... it shall b called e "felicia dance song"... rommance acted v. stupid when we sang e song 2 him... he almost whacked his bag on my face...
pontang badminton... as i hav 2 pack my stuff 4 tml's trip... actually i had nt done anyting yet... next stop... thailand...

2005-09-01T10:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday... recieved a damn shocking news... my uncle's passed away due 2 a fall... actually nt uncle... he's my aunt's husband... i juz call him uncle... coz i always addressed him in hokkien terms... always speak 2 him in hokkien... he led nt a wonderful life in e pass few yrs... he had suffered frm brain damage... due 2 another accident couple of yrs ago... he had lost all his memories... became a man wif a mind equivalent 2 a child... i really feel 4 him... really respected him... he's really respected by me... i was stoned when my mum told mi tat he had p[assed away 2 days ago...
bt... one ting stops mi frm goin 2 his funeral... he's wife... my aunt... my mum's younger sis... she was once respected by me... bt nw... e sight n sound of her name boils my blood... during my childhood days... i did lead a much poorer life... my brother really ask 4 $$$ as thought we hav infinite fund wif us... lucky he had changed after he worked... then my aunt had suffered frm dipression as her husband cnnt work due 2 his condition... she hav 2 support her family of 6... as my mum had 2 sell our hse in clementi as e bid is v. high... my family had 2 move 2 my aunt's hse... she welcomed us warm heartedly... bt... one day... as my bro was angry by e fact tat e hse phone had been kept away by my couson... then he tried 2 confront her... then tis cousin... she went 2 her mum saying tat we speak bad bout my uncle... wat sia??? out of furiousity... my aunt kicked us out of e hse next morning... my she has no logic!!! where r we supposed 2 stay??? in e end... we stay at our new apartment... b4 construction... wifout any electricity...
i was oni 12 tat time... bt i noe wats happening... it caused my mum's side of e family 2 had problems consistently... my mum told mi 2 go wif her 2 my aunt's hse one day... for5yr i dun 1 2 visit them or even look at my aunt's family... nw... after so many yrs... mum 1 mi 2 visit tat place again??? BS!!! i wun 1 2 go back 2 tat place... argued wif my parents... e hot headed mi kept on resisting goin ther... bt i saw my parents expression... they shd b tinking... "after so many yr... cn't my son b more forgiving???" shd i go ther???
uncle... rest in peace... i hope tat my aunt's family cn settle down fast after e death of e man of e hse...

2005-08-31T18:26:00.000+08:00

went back JWSS 2day... quite fun la... bt oni ting is i hav 2 stand e ppl whom i dun wish 2 c... so haolian la he... kanna sai... nw brag tat he's e SP volleyball sch team reserves... wat sia??? bluff oni la... pat is also in SP... sae he tok crap 1... wat e??? go n die la... tis aaron too( JWSS's aaron) i also piss him off 2day... haha... hu tel him dun 1 2 giv mr wong( DNT teacher) e muffin??? kanna suan by all of us... ayah... go eat crap la... JWSS bazzar is also v. lame... sell alot of lame tings... ayah... i saw tis particular ting... bt ahya... stupid la... if i'm early... then i get 2 buy it... e teacher's day card is huge!!! mrs Doo's( english teacher) card has lots of vulgarities... such as **** off la... n english sux... she is nt a gd teacher... totally lousy... may ppl frm my class 1 2 piss her off... ayah... 2nd class is lik tat la... JWSS also had jamming sessions... performing 2 e whole sch... it erm... wat 2 sae... practically sux...
MI's teacher's day... haha... bit lame... do e stupid aces day tingy... so stupid... i juz stood down ther n look around... so sian... concert... smooth criminal was nice!!! haha... e rest of e concert is lame too...
tml will b a movie of their choice... they noe wats nice... i juz tag along... actually i dunno hu's actually goin... go many doubtful ppl... zzzz!!!!

2005-08-30T16:33:00.000+08:00

Jeremiah's table is cursed!!! mine n his GP file lost under e same table!!! wat sia??? argh... dunno wat 2 do le... Mr yew wants e file by tml... wat e hell??? wat m i supposed 2 hand up 2 him??? sia la... dunno la... apa jer???
Thursday... i'm goin 2 take charge of e outing... seoul garden or sum other tings??? its e last outing wif my firends B4 i go away 2 thailand... 2 c my brother there... sian... hav 2 c him... stay in thailand so long... 4 wat??? work??? siao... rarely cum home... mum n dad miss him alot... then he juz came home... then took a detour back 2 thailand... wat sia???
sis... y so agitated??? if u tel mi on wat 2 help... of course i will help 2 ask ppl... bt... u plan 2 do it alone... then i dun even noe bout anyting... wat m i supposed 2 do??? i dun wish 2 say anyting more... oni hope tat tis cease quickly...
i'm nt hiding la... ok... let sae i'm hiding... hiding frm e fact of i'm weak in this... crying... complianing... writing my griefs on tis blog... i noe its irritating... too sian 2 c mi lik tat... saw these 2 friends whom i noe... e guy lik e gal... bt e gal dun lik e guy... ok la... erm... tis story may soud familiar 2 sum of u... keep quiet if u noe hu tis friend is... i'm on e gal's side... bt i feel bad for e guy... even he's friends r nt on he's side... coz i fear tat e same ting may happen 2 mi...
conclusion: its hard 2 plan... bt it takes lots of pain 2 get a perfect job done... my former class... o5s8 also lik tat... our spirit of our "chain gang" had nt died... so dun be disheartened... i take charge if able...

2005-08-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

Perfect by simple plan... new addition 2 my blog... my beta test is complete... no1 complains bout any faults... erm... so... it stays...
2day's jokes r far too lame... such as e "steaming machine" weixiang... haha... far too boliao... e stories tat r passing around 4 us 2 read... e part wher aaron always dies... haha... i feel lik i'm watching another version of southpark... where e charcter kenny always dies... stil hav lots of nonesense such as gay stories... bout ppl in our class being gay... practically nobody was listening 2 mr liau's lesson... juz BZ listening 2 our newly created stories...

2005-08-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

2day... concert... at cornerstone... katong...
its a nice performance... nw i understand wat daryl is trying 2 sae 2 mi... e protanganist is very alike mi... faced lots of events... betaryal frm a friend... matters of e heart... problems at work (tats sch 2 mi)...
daryl... i understand wat u r showing 2 mi... e pearching by e pastor in e video... although he speaks chimanology... he makes sense of wat ppl shall do 2 make themselves a better person... bt 2 ur disappointment... i'm still nt joining u in city harvest... bt i believe in god... bt no activities 4 chruches... ok... enuf of preaching by mi...
after e performance... ate at swenson's wif e whole grp... sis, weixiang,weney, miah, mingdong, ziwei, christel, ken... n finally mi... ate e gigantic earthquake... nice... mi n miah ate alot of e ice cream... next... beach... at east coast park... nice walk... sang songs... alot more... nice day... i'm looking forward 2 another such outing again... rather than staying at home n b gay... tinking bout many tings... stressing myself... tis is e break i'm hoping 4... a break 2 free myself...
i dunno wat 2 sae bout anyting... shared my story wif sis n "mum"... ( erm... which is christel... i call her tis coz sis also called her tis... 4gt e reason behind tat le...) dunno wat she's tinking le... i'm really confused... stil counting... e days tat i did nt tok 2 her le... i've kept quiet 4 so long... so so long... tat is'nt mi... y m i lik tat nwadays??? qns... 4 myself 2 answer... mystery 4 mi 2 unfold... my own mind prison 4 mi 2 unlock...

2005-08-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

new blog skin... erm... nt much purpose... bt oni 2 change a new face of my blog... nt tat gal pic tat ming dong 1 2 scold... nw... another gal pic again... haha... hope ming dong dun scold tis pic again...
i'm quick 2 throw temper nwadays... shocked rite??? eng seng heard mi swearing e whole recess... these 2 gigs pissed mi off... gig no.1 pissed mi off by demanding mi 2 go behind her... dun cut queue... hey... i'm nt ur dog ok... dun order mi 2 do tings... juz tel mi nicely... gig no.2 ... tapped my shoulder multiple times... juz 2 take his plate of rice... then tapped mi again... super pissed off wif him... then passed mi $0.20... wat sia??? wats tat 4??? i'm i such a beggar??? i noe i'm always broke... dun giv mi $$$ lik tis la... kanna sai... bt rommance was v. kind 2day... threated us drinks... tanks man!!! stupid com dun work tis few days... kept on crashing my msn... arghh!!!
wednesday... JWSS again!!! teachers day... hav 2 go back 2 sch c teachers... c my friends... c those ppl i dun usually c... lik jiayi( nt esther)... lik ms ho... mdm lock... e gals in e sch... ( usually i oni c e guys...)... intresting ppl such as cheezheng n yi heng...
dun 1 2 write anymore about tat anymore... its lik an arrow shot thru mi... dun 1 2 tink anymore... brainwash myself... bt thers always tis bad feeling rite inside mi tat sumtin happen... a strange feeling tat i've been a fool always believing tat i've hope... i dunno... juz tis feeling always inside of mi... mayb stil e phobia inside of mi tat has nt been cured...

2005-08-24T19:13:00.000+08:00

sia la... my day is sian 2day... other than e badminton training...
badminton training is fun... "A" team is slack... coz we always cheat behind mr soh's back... although our boys grp is damn small... we r able 2 make a fool of ourself in e training... oni ting is tat i forgot 2 bring my racket... kanna scolded...
friday... a big day... i'm goin back 2 JWSS... ther 2 c my teachers... mr lim... ms ho... still gt lots of them... i dun dare 2 let ms ho( maths HOD) noe bout my results in MI... she's gonna kill mi... i disappoint them alot... i saw lots of my juniors 2day... tat makes me look 4ward 2 friday...
i scolded ppl frm running away frm e truth... i din get 2 scold myself... i'm running away... i'm escaping... py is a all time chatty guy... a super chatter box... look!!! nw??? dun even dare 2 tok... sia la... such a failure man...for days... i din get 2 tok 2 u... missing sumtin'... sumtin' which is a never changing ting... all it matters... is tat i cn c ur cheerfulness again... even sacriface my own soul... all it matters... is u...
sis... although u hav 2 c tis everyday... tat i wrote bout tis person... bt... i dunno wat 2 sae... i dun even 1 2 bring my misery 2 sch... i oni 1 my friends in sch 2 c my normal self... nt e troubled sulky look on my face... i really dun 1 ppl 2 look at mi as a troubled guy... sorry sis... i've troubled u alot...

2005-08-23T20:26:00.000+08:00

confirmed... "A" team 4 badminton team... i was lik "TMD"!!! haha... name high up on e notice board... a glorious sign... i've done it!!! captain is yong jie... vice captain is sheldon... at least i wun hav 2 worry bout ronnie taking over e captain... which is impossible... i will work hard 4 MI... i will train myself 2 becum a strong competitor 4 every1... then... 1 day... i will emerge as e champ... Felix( current champ... RJC) watch out... I... Joaquin... aka heavy weight champ... will post a threat 2 ur game... wat a nice motivative speech... at least tis is a nice ting 2 make my life goin...
notin's really nice these few days... at least my bro's back in s'pore... 4 a moment... 2nite he's goin 2 thailand again... bon voyage bro!!!
sulky face??? nt my usual self nwadays... erm... ok la... at least a little bit of my playfullness is there 2day... wanting 2 let out... wanting 2 scream... wanting 2 unleash... liveliness in mi die down...
soon... e secret will b revealed... whether she noes or nt... i juz noe... i juz 1 2 sae... it had lingered mi 4 months rite nw... kept inside... afraid 2 sae it out... consequences may b fierce... no matter wat... when... wat... how... why... its u whom i matter...

2005-08-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

deleted e last update... it'll bring more chaos...
so far... i din tok 2 my friends bout how i'm feeling... smiled in front of them... they will straight away noe wat happen 2 mi if i frown 2day... tok lots of nonesensical tings... dun 1 them 2 worry... especially 2 patrick... i dun 1 2 let him worry... he will surely ask, " sigh... i noe happen 2 u la... i noe how u feel..." i dun 1 him 2 worry bout mi anymore... he has done much 2 help mi le... i stil hav 2 trouble him so much...
sis... i picked myself up le... dun worry... i wun drop died... its juz a situation tat makes mi sad... its a suspicion... ya... bt tis may b true... ayah... juz dun worry la... i'm nt so worthy of being worried 4... i'm juz another guy... another plain nonesensical guy who worrys bout everyting in e world...
sad... so sad... cn u understand??? will u noe??? juz hope tat u cn get 2 feel my sincerity... i really hope... my sincerity cn win... i hope...

2005-08-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

walao eh!!! whoa... tis week... i'm e most "lucky guy on earth"
firstly... i kanna ban calls... my stupid brother go 2 thailand work... call till sooo much... phone bill: $1076!!!! wat sia??? regreted 2 put line under his name... mine also affected... i also cnnt call... of course my parents r nt willing 2 pay 4 him... $1000++++ how 2 pay???
stil sick... flu worsened... affected my voice too... cnnt speak well... sianzzzzz... totally sian... cnnt consentrate on anyting
magically... tis mr daniel chong din catch mi during phys lect... actually almost la... lied 2 him... saying tat i hav beady eyes... so he c mi tot i slping lik tat.... then he din write my name...
sianzzz... sickness brought mi down nwadays... cnnt concentrate... dun really feel lik toking... lucky miah they all cn comprimise mi these few days... i m really really boring these few days... zzzzzzzzzzz!!! hope next week is beta... hope all my crappyness cn cum back these few days...
@#$%^&*!!! apa jer??? seen a person i dun 1 2 c juz nw... sianzzzzz... acted din c... i looked diff also from e past... so... haha... hope tis person dun reconize mi at all!!! haha!!! tis person also "diao" mi juz nw... its a tit 4 tat!!!
tanks sis... last nite gav mi a gd lecture... a gd tok... nw i feel much beta le... other than my health... bt i muz blame u 4 letting mi slp v.v.v.v. late last nite.... i was lik zombie tis morning... until i ate magic breakfast... awoke le... these few days mish crazy bout eating jelly... gav it a disgusting name... dun 1 2 sae... ltr ppl kill mi... then i tried... wats horrible is rommance!!! he tried e jelly... he ate lik!!! erm....erm....
i, miah, tan chuan analyze ppl's names 2day... there's kar koon... tis is a funny name... there chin choon... thers chwee bok... a whole list of them... erm... erm...

2005-08-18T19:51:00.000+08:00

wat sia??? hav e past few days events... caused my mind 2 change... swayed frm bad 2 worse... i dun really noe wat i'm toking... tinking... doing nwadays... i've became... a total shit... wats worse then shit???
i feel very lowdown... nearly caused a cold war... i'm sorry 4 wat happen between jasmine n weney... i dun really noe wat 2 say 2 u all... i'll hav 2 clear my name... i'm guilty 4 watever cause... i'm really sorry... i swear tis will nt happen again...
i'm always in deep shit... i'm always short tempered nwadays... blown off totally in front of mr liau( again)... he dun even comprimse mi... i really hav cca yesterday... he said i'm lying... wat e??? sigh... dun tok bout it...
laughed little 2day... smiled little too... sad... mayb i shall disappear tml frm sch... i tink i'll invite peace... i really feel tat i'm a little rascal... wat sia... i cnnt even do anyting rite...
sis... i noe wat u r trying 2 indicate 2 mi... i shall b strong... i swear... no matter wat... i'll show u... n every1 else... tat i'll nt fall... tat i'm a fighter... i nvr quit...
i din tok as much 2day... tinking of lots of stuff... i was v. sad... super sad... sick too...
my health deteriorates day by day... nw??? cough... flu... n lost my voice... spoke lik gay nw... if i 1 2 speak in my normal volume... i would hav 2 shout... its hurts even more...
i feel v. useless... e oni ting i cn do nt 2 do anyting... juz stand aside n watch... i feel i'm a useless scam... 2 c u smile... then i feel happy inside... lost soul i m... lost... really dunno wat 2 do... i'm too sian 2 tok 2 any1 bout tis... even my best buddy has kanna a prob he cn't even solve... if i go 2 him... i will trigger his sadness even more...
i'm really really v. sian... weak... totally lost... totally lost energy... totally a shit... i cn help ppl solve ther prob... bt i cn't even solve my own... wat a "hero"!!! lots of freaking jobs 2 do... lots of troubles 2 solve... "myself" 2 battle... competition wif others... studys... risk of kanna axed...
i cn't really handle tings anymore... wat a useless scam... protrayed as weak in every1s mind...
totally low morale....

2005-08-17T18:43:00.000+08:00

MI badminton "A" team... here i go!!! haha!!! i tot i'm axed frm e team... 2day... my coach is shocked 2 watch mi trash... 15-1... 15-4... oni e last match... i kanna trashed... by julie( omg... i lost 2 a gal... so paiseh...)... 5-15... stupid tracy... tel her my weak point... kanna targeted at my weak point... argh!!! i'm also too tired 2 play any more matches... erm... 2day's bad is quite nice la... bt i stil nt confirmed tat i'm in "A" team... tml is e final results... i oni saw mr chan n mr soh pointing at mi... wisphering... one day... i shall nt humiliate myself again... muz beat julie 1 day... then beat tracy... then yong jie... erm... hav i tinked too much???
wa... sian... tml... ms " hello kitty" ong is goin 2 take over my class... c is she as bad as wat o5s4 sae bout her??? is she really a nitemare??? when is mrs meya cumin back??? i dun 1 anymore crappish teachers such as mr "sound lik ziwei" soh... n ms "hello kitty" ong...
wat sia??? 2day took photo... saw tis guy... look lik jun long... haha!!!!
inside of mi... fear grows... storys frm sum of my friends... does mind games really exist??? or hav u discovered sumtin??? its nt mi... i dunno sia... i really cn't bring myself up... or is it mi hu is holding myself back??? wats ther 2 fear??? i'm always liddat... i always back away... out of nowher... i m also confused... confused by e matter tat its a confusing matter... i always tink tat u noe sumtin... or i juz tink too much... too much stress... it is'nt u hu's e prob... its mi... its mi........

ZZZZ.....

2005-08-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

@#$%^&*!!!!!!!! wat sia??? faizal!!! u cancelled e o5s8 outing!!! it means so much 2 us... wats is ther 4 u 2 cancel??? r u goin 2 b so much a basket 2 cancel it??? juz becoz of 1 absentee??? wat kinda of organiser r u?? a selfish freaking arsewhole( erm... cnnt scold)??? i'm so so fed up wif everyting... bad news after bad news... my dreams of seeing s8 again is smashed!!! @#$%^&*!!!!!
wat sia??? wat hav i done wrong sia??? zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.......
mayb its fate... mayb i hav gone back 2 e past me... mayb i've becom e me where i couldn't stand up 4 watever... i'm goin 2 cum back again as a fighter... a fierce fighter... wher i allow no rooms 4 mistakes again...
wat hav u discovered??? i've getting too confused... tel mi... wat... why... when... where... how... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz2

2005-08-15T20:32:00.000+08:00

wat e hell??? kanna 1 week full of hwk period??? zzzzzz.... mr liau... y chouldn't u giv mi back my file??? i cn do it at home wat... wats e diff??? zzzzzz....
GP period... sian... another teacher takes over our class... wats worse... she cnnt teach on thurs n fri... e "hello kitty"... ms ong takes over!!! wat sia??? full of rubbish 2day... wat e??? @#$%^&*!!!!!! video nt completed... many ppl r complaining... wat e hell!!! aaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!! stressed!!!!!!!
sick... cough... tired... all thanks 2 e downstairs of my block... construction... add 2 e misery i hav 2day...
e oni ting fun is PE... played volleyball wif jeremiah n e gals... dun 1 2 play b'ball wif e others... i always cnnt get TC's ball... he too tall... i too fat 2 jump i tink... volleyball was full of nonesense... miah dun noe how 2 play... he anyhow... haha... erm... all tanks 2 patrick(JWSS) hu taught mi how 2 play last time... i cn "shine" 2day... erm...
juz recieved news... o5s8(PAE) is goin 2 seoul garden tis weekend(20th aug)... wassup man!!! i m so disappointed at myself 4 nt goin tat time... if nt 4 e bazaar... tis time... let mi... appear myself 4 e 2nd outing... coz e chain gang(as wat my class is called) is...here!!!!!( hey... i'm nt poser... nt following john cena...) my 1st wish is almost complete... haha... tanks... daryl 4 telling mi e news... really looking forward 2 tis day...

double sia la....

2005-08-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

juz went concert... national day concert down below my block... tot they will sing e stupid NDP theme again... lucky they din sing... had fun ther... i n my friend kept on laughing at e fans ther... haha... watch them so enthu... waiting 4 sylvester 2 cum out... bt he 4gt his lyrics!!! erm... then my friends ah... c rui en then eyes pop out le... wat sia? haha...
ok la... 2day shall b short n sweet... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

sia la

2005-08-12T15:54:00.000+08:00

whoa... wat a nice day... mr yew ( new HT) had treated us a meal 2day... sadly... he cn oni leave $$$ wif us... he can't eat wif us as he hav 2 report 2 camp at 2:15... miah ordered canadian pizza... nice... haha... e oni ting is e last part wher we hav 2 cut e pizza again so as 2 benefit other ppl hu 1 2 hav a second serving... tis cn b said as e 1st class gathering... tanks mr yew!!! 2day... ther is tis "frog fever"... we played tis frog game... n do forfiet... haha... how fun... most intresting is tat miah kanna forfiet... he erm... had 2 do sumtin 2 weney... erm... dun 1 2 sae... ltr miah kill mi... haha... dun ask him too... whoa... no maths 2day... how nice... we hav evacuation drill 2day... then miah start tis "frog game"... e class seemed 2 bcum more n more united... bt sadly... ther is also chaos in e class as well... jannah... i dunno wat attitude problem she hav 2day...
she pointed middle finger at aaron n sweared at him... hoe rude... all becoz of a rugby ball??? hey... he apologized 2 her... wat else do she 1??? aaron kept quiet till physics lect... until tan chuan cheered him up...
physic lect... another boring ting in e time table... oops!!! i slept again in e lecture... i tot i cleared 2day... dun nid 2 stay back... wat sia??? i kanna e last name in e list!!! i hav 2 write a letter 2 him... ayah... anyhow la... i wrote i juz shut my eyes 4 a moment... then he caught mi... n i even wrote " my beloved sir" eee!!! sound so gay!!! haha... actually wrote tat 2 insult him...

ZZZZ.....

2005-08-11T18:24:00.000+08:00

2day is another day of sch... back frm e long break... haha... cn c all of my friends again... lots of laughter again... miah... stil e same... lots of crap in mind... disturb dominid... erm... dominic... lol... distrub meeen don... erm... mingdong... wats nice 2day is mr liau is in gd mood 2day... y??? i finshed my assignments on time... passed up my file... listen 2 lecture... wow... wat a different mi 2day??? finally did hwk??? haha... i dunno y... c mr liau smile 2day makes mi happy too... finally 1 day i cn sae, " hey!!! mr liau din piss mi off 2day!!!" erm... i noe ppl complain bout mi being rude 2 him sumtimes... ya... i noe... i will keep in mind... b a gd student... haha...
looking at mr chang makes mi laugh... i tot of my msn pic... then look at him... erm... i tink my art sense is excellent!!! here is a pic of him... erm... dunno wat 2 sae le... hope tml will b a beta day???

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz2

2005-08-10T18:19:00.000+08:00

wat sia... damn sian ah!!!!! boring!!! 2day's boring!!! kanna sai!!! turned down alot of tings 2day... bt 4 greater gd... i went out wif my buddies... n so as 2 c how my friend is doin... lucky he seemed 2 b brightened up... he smiled alot 2day... haha... i feel tat i'm a great guy... he started 2 start his sad story again at 1 time... bt i distracted him wif a stupid joke... pheeew... lucky i was quick enuf... tis wasn't 2 b blamed... aftermath after tis kinda prob is unevitable... yo... 'dey'(brother in tamil) cheer up man!!! sure ya gotta b e rite guy... i believe in ya... haha!!! remember wat both of us promised each other... dun 1 2 post it on e blog... its too embrassing la...
sorri guys... i was nt able 2 go out wif u all... i hav tis ting 2 settle... sorri miah... aaron... TC... erm... sorri sis... i wasn't ther 2 help in e cherography... sorri... best of luck tml... i noe its hard 2 form a dance grp... bt i really wasn't able 2 b ther 2 help... sorri guys...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2005-08-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

many tings happen after every1 seperated frm JWSS...
nw my close friend kanna tis prob... similar lik e 1 i hav 3yrs ago... nw... memories cum forth again... he's always ther during tis tough period i hav... i really nt hav a idea on wat 2 sae 2 him... i was at a lost of words... i wanted 2 comfort him... bt i dun hav e ablity 2 comfort ppl... i wanted 2 help him... bt e matters of e heart... i was always a loser in tis... i wanted 2 repay him... wanted 2 do sumtin meaning in return 2 help... mayb many dun noe tat... he stayed wif mi all nite juz 2 comfort mi those days... nw... wat i cn oni do is 2 erm... say sumtin online... i fear tat i make him even more sad... tis kinda friend... he's hard 2 find... i dun 1 him 2 b lik mi... wait 4 3yrs??? kanna sai!!! those 3yrs were full of nothingness!!! lucky i've given up... he stil wants 2 carry on... tis is how strong he feels...
frm tis incident... learned many tings... cum on man!!! e past is gone!!! nw... i will nt 1 2 make mistakes tis time... no matter wat u all goin 2 sae bout mi... watever plans u all plan 2 make mi giv up... as i dunno y... i noe sum1 even go 2 sis n ask her 2 tel tis to mi too rite??? i dun 1 2 mention names... u noe hu u r... "she will be loved" as e song saes... tis song is nt goin 2 fade... e msg is also goin 2 stay... so... hey... tis is'nt goin 2 work la... i noe wats gd 4 mi... so dun teach mi wat 2 do... i'm trying 2 tel tis nicely...

double sia la....

2005-08-08T16:20:00.000+08:00

huh??? huh??? huh??? so confused... hav i committed a sin nwadays??? ppl start 2 quarrel in argue wif mi... i started 2 tink i shd nt b so playful eh??? y does every1 b in bad terms wif mi??? quarrelled wif my sec sch buddies on sun... bt more??? no... pls... i dun 1 2 b in a state tat i hav attitude problem again... i noe i hav bad temper... bt it isn't goin 2 blow... i m sorry 4 wat i've created guys... i noe my foul mouth has 2 b blamed... i hope tings cn brighten up soon...
i've been stressed by many problems nwadays... so... i could b abit short curcuit sumhow...
sorry miah, MD, ziwei, wei xiang... i cnnt join u all 4 e carnival 2nite... lets say... erm... i'm sick 2day... so i cnnt join in e fun... i wun b lik tis next time... rommance... sis... weixiang... u all seen a sudden change 2day rite??? sorry guys... i've created a hell of a prob... dun u dare ask mi wat happened... tis is wat i shall giv on my blog...

sia la

2005-08-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

wat happen sia??? wat really happen??? i really dun understand... really... wat happen 2 u sia??? giv mi sum ans... y u becom lik tat??? dun noe wat 2 sae when i c ya again... dunno wat 2 do when looking at ya... dun keep 2 yaself... notin's goin 2 go wrong... sae it out... cry it out... shout it out!!! "WTF!!!" its nicer tat way...
"in the end( linkin' park)" i've tired so hard... yet gt so far... in e end... it doesn't even matter...
my nitemare is step by step... cumin true... wat e hell??? i always believe tat dreams r always dreams... bt... erm... i dunno... it cums true sumtime... i cn't let tis cum true... sigh... i've always been such a failure... sigh... sis... ur bro is such a failure... he sux in tis kinda ting... i dun really noe wat will happen in e next saga of my life... bt all i noe is 2 create a bliss... an utopia... banish all unhappiness... even i had 2 suffer... as long as ya... is in utopia... is wat i 1 2 c...

shhhh

2005-08-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

sunday... 7th july... another day of LAN... bt 2day's LAN is nt fun at all... played 4 3hrs... bt we wasted 1 hr of nothingness!!! every1's co crashed cos of e poor coms they provided... told them 2 play in douby gaught... they wanted 2 go sumwhere near.. then, tis happens... ahya... these ppl... dun even go out of jurong... juz lik hermits... sigh... did they ever tot of goin elsewhere 4 a moment?
seems lik tings r diff after all of us seperated frm JWSS... under diff influence... our mindsets seemed 2 b so diff nw... mine is more 2 goin far far away... theirs r goin around their neighbourhood... is'nt tat a bit sian??? zzzzzz....
mmm... tml... lots of programmes will happen... lots of nonesensical programmes tml... national day celebration... erm... kite flying...( wat i was worrying 4 many days)... lastly... marina carnival( shd i go???)
marina carnival... mmm... nite programme... miah's goin 2 throws us aside again... i tink... i feel lik bit extra... shall i go??? qns in my nw... mmm... if i ask more ppl go... will i bring many more extras??? or shall i juz throw them aside... then stay at home... mmm... if tml... oni mi, MD n ziwei... i dun 1 2 go le... ahhh... or shall i ask sis too???( eh... u tel mi 2 mention ur name de huh...) erm...
ayah... tml then i shall decide wat i shall do... erm... ya... tan chuan... hope ya recover frm ur erm... ankle injury???

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2005-08-06T15:28:00.000+08:00

zzz... JWSS choir at JP 2day performing... saw lots of JWSS ppl... sian... many of them changed alot... poly ppl... lots of style... dyed hair... funky styles... i cnnt do tat in MI... zzz... e performers r ok... bt e choir is soft... cnnt b heard!!! zzz... missing e days where i cn perform on stage... full of audience... glory... applauce they giv... e fact tat they r mezmerized by our voices... i dunno when will b e day wher i cn go on stage again... perform 4 every1 once more... zzz... quiet again when i c my old friends... dunno how 2 communicate again... back 2 my old self when i c them... mayb i rarely c them...
qns... no ans... stil dun understand... tis story involves lots of protaganists... wat is goin on??? tings becoming more n more complicating... dunno wats goin 2 b e outcome... i cn't sit back n let e tale flow lik tat... i've already felt so numb... it seems... i try n try n try... stil no ans... grrr.... y muz tis b lik tat??? i've ruin everyting once...i dun 1 2 ruin twice again... salvage any chance... save every hope...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

2005-08-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

aha!!! many tings goin on tis week... especially 2day...
lots of tings of my shoulder... chem file... physics file... haha... bag abit lighter nw... haha!!! bt i kanna scolded... tekan... picked on... by many teachers 2day... sian... mr liau(again)... mr yew... mr chong(phy lecture)... caught tokin... file nt done... erm.... hwk haven finsh....
erm..... kite... finally finish!!! haha.... oni leave jannah 2 do e final touch up....
ayah... stil gt many classes haven finsh e kite... ask so many ppl stay back... haha... my class oni main commitee stay back... fast... efficient.... haha... sorry ppl frm other classes... i will continue being e erm.... efficient class rep??? zzzz.....
I'm tired of these continuous treats of sending mi n miah 2 e hwk session... tink it will change everyting??? y every prob lies between mi n jeremiah??? lame la... mr liau... continuously... treatening both of us... tis system sux... library will eventually becom a place... nt 4 reading... bt 4 detention... zzz... let results do e tokin'!!! end of yr... all of u will c... an 'A' 4 chem... its hard... bt i will make miracles happen!!!
wat sia... too confused!!! 1 moment tis... 1 moment tat??? wats goin on??? wats goin on nwadays??? is ther any ans too tis??? dun tink too much bout tis stuff... i'm ther...

huh???

2005-08-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

mmm... army days r few yrs ahead... looked at e BMT life... woooo!!! life ther seems intresting... beta then army in e past... mmm... we seemed 2 b more fortunate... dad n bro dun hav such facilities during ther army days... gd bed... gd training... hi tech military rifle training... mmm... oni ting is PFT... 3 yrs 2 train myself... watch mi!!! 5 pullups rite??? ronnie!!! u will treat mi ur 1yr long meal soon!!! everybody had heard wat u said... beta keep ur promise!!!
no badminton training 4 boys 2day... all pontang... haha!!! saw almost every1 in tekong 2day!!! haha... my arrival in tekong is last min... dun 1 2 attend mr liau's lesson... he's extremely pissed off 2day... sumore i rebel out of class... i should'nt do tat la... i noe its wrong... bt he's too much... din bring file... tel mi waste$$$ buy file again!!! wat sia... nonsense leh... my whole day's smile's gone coz of him... when i was strolling around e sch... miah whistled at mi... he said my name was inside e BMT tingy... haha... saw my chance... went to class... packed my bag... asked mr liau 4 permission 2 leave 4 tekong... haha... lucky i was able 2 join in... gals dun get e chance 2 visit tekong 2day as ther were too many guys n ppl lik mi... last min join in... causing e bus 2 overflow... oops... haha!!! too bad... guys get e piority 2 join in 1st....
mmm... tml is file checking... *toot*!!! liau chee mun sure goin to tekan mi again... sian... ah!!! tml also muz stay back 2 do e kite tingy... double sian... bt hav 2 do la... or else wat r we goin 2 display during national day???

??????

2005-08-02T19:19:00.000+08:00

black ppl!!! stop tokeeeen!!! stop yappereeeen!!!! lots of stupid jokes 2day by S1.... starting 2 lik my class... as a class rep... i muz b devoted 2 my class... mi, aaron, tan chuan... miah... mingdong... ziwei... yu long went 2 play b'ball... v. fun... bt we lost e game.... sian... i was lazy la... din 1 2 play much... erm... bt e sad ting is tat ther's no DOTA in sch com lab anymore!!! ahhh!!!! walao... stupid technician!!! stupid cheena man!!!( erm... discrimination against china ppl) reduce e space of e com 2 5MB!!!! stupid... cnnt install warcraft anymore!!! wa sian....... day starts wif a misrable lame stuff... slp in class till mornin assembly... wa... it works leh... full of energy 4 classes n play!!! haha... gd tactic 2 start a day... haha!!! nt sick anymore!!! lots of liveliness in mi nw... haha!!! tml... i will terrorize ppl again!!!
sianzzz.... task after task... kite... teacher's day video... chem file... cheena file...
ahhh!!! workload piled up!!! wa!!! stressful!!! espiecially chem file... 1 2 finsh... let mr liau shut up... look down on mi... i'll show him step by step... then he cn stop yapping at mi... ( er... kinda fierce la)
nonesensical tinking time!!! zzzz... confused... tinking 4 few days le... still no answer... zzz... many ppl will get bored by mi updating wif tis crap everyday...
sing "suo yi"... noe wat e lyrics is about... if i lose... tis will b my song... my tinking... mindset... wat if i m losing??? then listening 2 "suo yi" full of meaning... lik "she will be loved"... e sacrifaces i dare 2 make is also in e song... y cn't everyting b lik "jian dan ai" by jay chou??? y everyting has 2 b tough??? erm.... erm... dun tink any1 understand... erm... zzzzzzzz......

...........

2005-08-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

zzzz.... no mood 2day... sick.... headache... spliting!!!! ah!!!!! cnnt focus.... 1 2 slp... zzzzz.... sian.... slept repeatedly in class... no mood 2 study... my body gets weaker day by day... due 2 overwhelming stress n consistent late nite slp.... ahhh!!!! shd change my lifestyle b4 i drop dead.... haha... ban late nite slp...
PFT.... i failed lik *toot* failed pull up... failed 2.4... fail... fail.... fail..... dunno y everytime napfa cums i sick 1... totally nonesensical *toot*.....
pissed off wif mr liau 2day too... wah... sian... so stupid... extra lessons after sch.... 1 2 piss every1 of too... S1 tis.... S1 tat.... nonsense leh... tink he damn perfect lik tat.... his pronounciation sux... stil sae our spelling sux... stupid leh... wait till promos cum... i, alongside wif miah... will prove 2 him our potiential.... 2 make him shut his mouth! score 'A' 4 chem... then he will hav notin 2 sae bout us... no more tekan!!!
sing e song again n again n again..... trying 2 find out e true meaning 2 it... nonsensical thought i tink... many asked "she will be loved" ? wat r u goin 2 mean..... ayah... dun care la... take it as a song.....
sink mi into e world of misery... sink mi into e plane of un-understandable toughts... sink mi into e reigon of crapishness... trying to find another way outta of tis nonsensical shit* (oops)... zzzzz... trying 2 b chim... making it tough 2 understand... make another chimanology ( singlish word)... making it another... another tougher riddle 2 let ppl noe wat m i tinking...
ayah... guys... dun tink so much... wat i m tinking i another nonsensical crap agian...

zzzzz.z.... 3

2005-07-31T17:28:00.000+08:00

after days, weeks, months of waiting... finally... my com is repaired!!!! tis is e 1st update frm my hse... haha.... its been long... since i last use my com 2 surf...
2day is another boring day... played LAN again... lost lik mad... din win a match...
zzzzzz.... notin 2 do at home... seems tat notin's fun tis few days... totally sian... another week of crap has past... if i cn spend tis crappish week studying... i cn understand lots of tings in class... then i cn pass my tests...
day by day... week after week... notin' is goin 2 b beta... confusion... full of dotz... full of mind games... un-understandable... cnnt be heard... cnnt be spoken... cnnt be done... cnnt be seen... cnnt be thought... cnnt be told... full of cnnt...
if i get e answers... if i hav e chance... if i noe wats wrong... if i noe wat i'm goin 2 do... if i get e courage... if i noe wat u r tinkin'... if i get 2 noe wat e hell i'm tinking too...
tml after tml... r tings goin 2 b beta??? when is e day when i cn b happy... when is e day wher i will nt update my blog in tis way... when is e day whereby i will nt sing "suo yi" by slyvester sim( listen 2 it... its nice)... when is e day whereby i cn make u happy... zzzzzzzzz.......

wats wat is wat.....

2005-07-30T12:49:00.000+08:00

2day's update is bit dull... coz notin' 2 write bout... its goin 2 b a continued version of yesterday's update...
parents nite... mmm... it isn't as bad as i expected... lucky mr liau n mr wong were nt ther... or else i will get it... sis dun hav a beta fate than mi... she had mr wong bside chan chin choon 2 tok 2 her dad... haha... suay la... parents... wun happy bout all my results... cheena especially... wat sia... pass though... bt its lik... erm... nt gd la... chem... maths... totally crappish la... wat i'm proud of is GP... erm... my parents were oni happy wif tat... they always believe tat my past results will b back... i mean lik e form i hav in JWSS... bt its hard... ya... as promised... i will fight 2 get myself 2 b in e top 10 percent... watch mi!!!! muahaha.... mr chang told mi tat i had lots of problems... always distracted in sch... mmm... of course i deny having any problems la... i dun 1 anyone 2 worry bout mi...

ohh! ohh!!

2005-07-29T16:20:00.000+08:00

zzzzzz..... another boliao day...... full of crazy crappish things goin on.... 2day is lik sian.... zzzz..... notin 2 do in sch.... slept in maths.... bt e fun part is on physic lecture.... full of crappish jokes.... full of drawings.... n e compostion of e S1 tongue twisters... full of chan chin choon n charles chang... coz of their names.... i get 2 make fun of them... full of nonesense la...... on monday...i get 2 c e completed version of e tongue twister... every1 will get a chance 2 try it.... muahaha... boliao.....
these few days was nt tat fun... ayah... dunno y la... many ppl r buzy wif their tings.... ziwei went working... no1 cn take bus wif mi anymore.... zzzzz.... 2day is parents meeting... totally sian... listen 2 many teachers complain bout mi.... surely will b e case de.... these days... i will hav many tings 2 accomplish... 6th aug... o5s8 meeting(PAE) ... 7th aug... finsh e kite tingy... 11th aug... audition 4 teachers day... full of big events 2 complete... total stress!!!! ahhh!!!!
ther sure 2 b many tings 2 complete... many stuff 2 archieve...
time is given 2 mi... 2 tink about it... 2 reliase wat i shall do... 2 noe wats goin on... 2 noe whether i muz work hard... 2 noe whether does she reliase... 2 noe whether i cn make myself e 1...
yesterday's nitemare was a nitemare... bt it seems so real in my dream... everyting... every moment of it drained my energy......
i'm trying nt 2 let it happen... i goin 2 work hard even more... tis nitemare is goin 2 b a myth!!!

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2005-07-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

zzzzz.... zzzzz..... zzzzz.....
tiring day 2day again..... back 2 daryl's place 2 update tis blog....
many ups and downs... bt i m nt dishearted..... its part of life......
tml... badminton trainin' again.... sianzzzz..... ah!!! dun wish 2 go.... ah!!!!!
all buff up 4 tml's trainin'??? hope so.....
sian.... notin's gd 2day.... lots of boring things in 1 day... wish tml is nt lik tat.....
notin's new... wats new is tat i had lunch wif my classmates..... sian..... no $$$$$ 2 eat... ate too much durin' recess....
then hav bball wif daryl.... total sian case.... borin' match wif few bengs.... din played well.... i seem 2 be distracted... nw.... end up here updating e blog... sian.....
mrs chong said i'm nicce 2day.... is tat so??? i'm juz tired n too sian 2 tok... cnnt bring myself up n study... distracted... full of problems... dunno wat i was tinkin' though... sianz... these few days.... i was always tokin out of point.... dunno wat i'm tokin bout....

ZZZZZZZ..... no. 2

2005-07-25T19:43:00.000+08:00

my god sis is stil a great fighter... saw her nowadays... stil playin badminton n fooling around....
haha.... i m glad..... pontang sumore PE la..... lol..... 2 tink of it... wat was i angry 4??? din really noe wat really happen e last few days... blame it on my short temper....
really 2 tink of it..... i feel.... suddenly.... god sis is back.... mmm... remember... esther.... ur god bro is back too.... wat i've said is too extreme.... sis.... i m sorry... i'm sorry 4 wat i've done.... its like erm... extreme.... i dun mean wat i've said...
gd news man!!!! i'm, goin 2 learn guitar!!!! wait til i get my last string!!!! haha... miah... u gav mi motivation 2 pick up guitar again.... haha.... i'm motivated 2 learn again!!!!!! weee!!!!!
haha.... wait till i learn a song... then i will plaugue every1 wif songs!!!! muahaha!!!!
2day was bit fun la.... other than e part wher i gt punished.... stupid weney... say wat 1 2 keep a hamster at e back of e class.... walao... kanna punish coz of tokin'.... i din even speak a word loh... zzzzzzzzz...... lame....
parents meeting in round er... 4days??? sure gt lots of complains 1 la... mr liau.... sure complain bout mi till lik dunno wat.....
pro leh... 2day play badminton wif s4.... played till lik happy leh.... team s1 won 1 lost 1..... mi n aaron.... haha... great parthnership leh!!!! beat rafi n tzekiat.... haha!!!!! er... beta dun b too hao lian......
nwadays lik 4get tings too easily.... PE kit also 4get.... no choice... pontang lor..... i control e attendence wat..... u may sae i'm a poor class rep.....
ay!!! i tink my pontang streak is back!!! alike o5s8 days.... haha
every1 in o5s8(PAE) claims tat they're pontang king.... haha....
ayah.... can't wait for 6th aug!!!!!! wassup man!!!! woohooo!!!!!

wat da hell????

2005-07-24T10:56:00.000+08:00

tis is a continued version of yesterday's update.... which i had deleted.....
tis week is full of wat sia.... wat e hell..... n wat oni???
its a week full of joy... lameness... anger... disappointment... n er.... er.... dun hav liao...
1 week has gone... new problems plague in day by day..... tis Jess suddenly cum out frm nowher( pardon mi....) n ask mi 2 help... er.... i tink its an almost impossible task 4 mi 2 help le.... i m esther's god bro oni.... i cnnt help much.... since she continued e cold war 4 lik 1 week le....
its lik er... sian... ok... i cn always be here 2 listen 2 any comments...
bt tis week.... i feel lik i hav put down lots of load off my shoulder...
finally... i found new ppl 2 put in my "gang" list... dominic... rommance.... i had past differences wif them... bt its lik... ok... i really had found wats nice of them...
er... friday... i was a little tired la... i m so sorry if i offend any1 tat day... especially miah n rommance... er... ya.... i m sorry...
yesterday... went out wif pat n drew... then played soccer... er... bit nice la... although i played lik...er sux??? lol... bt wats strange is e fact tat eugene was a bit nice yesterday... mmm... cn c tat he's changing... mmm... gd!!! hope he changes from bad 2 gd.....
hmm... actually 2day i m supposed 2 go c how's ziwei doin wif his new job... mayb i dropby JP awhile 2 "check" on him... and also 2 disturb him a bit... wish him gd luck!!!!

zzzzzzz!!!!!

2005-07-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

yesterdays a nice day.....
its my b'day.... my friends were wif mi e whole time....
tanks alot man!!!! all of u.... i had a v. happy day yesterday...
kanna warcked by all my MI friends.... b'day bash....
painful of course.... bt its nice la... seeing all my friends gather 2gether n celebrating.....
fun la... haha....
after sch..... went play B'ball wif Daryl....
we formed a gd tag....
sadly.... we cnnt beat e China ppl.....
haha.... after all.... its fun....
at nite..... DOTA!!!! LAN!!!!! haha..... invited pat, drew, Jianbin, Dal 2 my hse eat cake..... next, DOTA!!!!!
lost again..... er..... nvm...
then wats strange is a mystery present i recieved in sch....
its a nike rotero soccer ball... a card.... no name....
i seriously tanks tis person hu gav mi e gift.... tanks a lot man... i noe its bit ex la.... bt u're sincere.... i hav lots of suspects in mind of hu is e person... i dun wish 2 sae bt tat person noe hu he/she is.....
i appreciate e gift.... tanks again....
i hav a long list of ppl i 1 2 tank.... er..... tanks 4 giving mi an excellent day!!!!!

stupid day again.....

2005-07-15T20:07:00.000+08:00

eeeeee!!!!!!! 2day is really lame.... another stupid day.... another stupid update in my blog.....
crazy.... hav 2 cum back 2 sch after exams.... cn't we hav a day's rest??? stil carry on lessons..... stupid system by e sch..... totally sian..... crazy sch.....
after sch.... played pool.... form is ok 2day.... bt atmosphere is bit sian..... kept yawning durin' waiting.... so sian......
tml.... og outing..... again??? mmmm...... doby gaught.... will watch movie.... eat.... n dunno??? mayb tml then will hav more programmes.....
suddenly a qns popped out of my mind suddenly... y muz i do wat ppl instruct mi 2???
u all cnnt instuct mi 2 do everyting wat.... wa lao eh.... its my life....
giving up is nt possible... u tink easy 2 forget huh??? no rite??? as i said in my msn... once beaten twice shy... i had experience failure once le... tell mi 2 experience again??? i dun tink i cn take it...
she will be loved... as my song goes again... wait is 1 ting... until when??? until be loved??? by others???
ayah... dun tink too much le... tml go 4 outing wif a long face meh???

exams over!!!! weee!!!!!!!!

2005-07-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

wat e hell????
after days n days of boring stuff.... i mean study.....
finally.... exams over!!! weee!!!! haha......
2day bit off.... dun 1 2 tok in sch..... ppl tink i siao le.....
really meh??? i look pissed off 2day??? i dun tink so... tink i dun hav specs... tats y.....
1st ting cum 2 sch.... study.... chiong maths.... tink i v. pro.... tink read IJC's "holy book" cn work.... bt it sort of help.....
actually 2day's paper is sort of hard... bt i sort of finish every qns.... ah.... bt do every qns does nt mean i m smart..... oni mean 1 cn anyhow do n complete every single qns
haha.... after sch..... went 2 play LAN!!!!!
DOTA time!!!! haha...... although lost every game.... i hav a great time playing.... learned lots of tings too.....
nw i m in pat's hse.... haha... updating tis lame blog.....
so stupid.... tml.... pool??? or badminton???
play wat??? tink its all set... miah... MD... ziwei... sis... joycelyn... ENGSENG... weixiang... u all beta go!!!! or else... wo yao ni hao kan!!!!! muahaha....

feel dead

2005-07-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

2day... no exams..... stayed at home.... slack.... listen 2 sum music....
stuck whole day in my own room.... totally lame....
actually intending 2 go 2 toa payoh 2 learn maths frm engseng.....
bt i rejected e offer at e last min..... i dun feel lik goin out 2day....
totally sian at home.... 1 2 go back 2 sch.... bt dun 1 2 take exams......
tml is e last paper of my mid yr..... maths.....bt i dun tink i noe how 2 do even a simple qns.......
hope tml is a turning point 4 my maths....
wa lao eh.... sis..... wa..... i m really bombarded here liao......
wat e??? i m bombarded wif lots of shock n disappointment......
i noe wat u mean.... sis.... bt tis cnnt b prevented...... my nightmare really cum true.... after 3yrs of tis crap.... left JWSS..... wanted 2 start anew sumwhere else.... tis crap happens again......
tis had left mi wif no choice.... i cnnt do wat e song has said..... "i dun mind spending everyday... out on ur corner in e pouring rain"
i cn do it..... bt do she feel it??? dun tink so....... e day she feels it is e day tat...........

exams......

2005-07-12T19:43:00.000+08:00

sian la.... stupid exams......
too much of papers.... physics.... chem.... chinese.....
ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stress...... ahhh......
sight of exams...... sight of rommance!!!!! sight of dominic..... ahhh!!!!! make mi stress more!!!!!
2day's papers r killer!!!!! physics... did 1 hr... then slp..... y? cos i dun noe how 2 do e qns.... haha...
bt chinese... quite ok la.... its nt so hard.... tink cn pass la.....
after sch.... went 2 JP wif ziwei, engseng, weixiang, mingdong..... engseng has concert 2day.... wish him gd luck!!!!! i respect performers lik tis.... they stil cn perform.... i miss performing on stage... sigh..... juz wish him gd luck oni la....
ahh... tml is another lame day again..... tml muz go n study maths.... since i have no 'a' maths background.... teacher will b engseng!!!! hope he cn make mi understand.... COZ I M GOIN 2 TERRORIZE HIM!!!!!!
sis.... cn u help mi nw??? tat phone call u gave mi juz nw is nt a shock.... bt it make mi sad.....
dun say tat kinda tings.... its sumhow..... eh.... it brings down my morale again...
feel damn sian.... sigh*
y muz tings get worsen everyday??? y muz tis kinda tings land on mi???
sounds so stupid.... bt i cnnt overcome it when tings worsen day by day..... if tis crap doesn't happen... or i din appear in e 1st place... everyting might b juz fine.... is'nt tat true???
y muz life qns mi lik tis??? is it i m nt gd enough??? is it tat i muz b more experienced???
or is it tat i muz sacriface everyting... then my life will b beta???
wat a stupid qns..... sigh.... c how loh.... let time pass by n c how... if e situation is beta.... i shall make a difference....... wat is gone.... will b back.....

weee!!!!!

2005-07-09T19:04:00.000+08:00

new blogskin!!!!!
weeee!!!!! maroon 5's she will b loved......
wat a inspiring blog once again.....
2day is a meaningfull day....
study n study n study n study........
go thru physics..... understanding tis stupid subject... at last!!!!! ah...... how nice!!!!!!
then soccer in e evening.... so stupid..... cnnt score even a goal.... haha..... actually i cnnt even score la....
juz a lousy player oni..... played wif long pants.... cnnt play well.... of course....
wat i will update 2day will nt b as vulgar as yesterday....
bt i cn confess.... i stil cnnt get thru my shock n blow.... i cnnt let e past cum again into my life.... it will b too much a pain.....
i muz do sumtin..... cnnt sit back n relax le...... or else i will hav no chance le....
i muz b selfish..... ther is no way i will giv up on any hope.....
i will never let e past happen.... i will never giv up.... although i cn b a failure in this in ways....
bt i will make it a success later.... never e chance will i give up.... guys.... although u had given up on mi... bt i will make tis a success 4 u all 2 c.....
if i were given a chance nw... treasure it.... i will.....
i will make miracles.... many of u will say.... if u make it.... tats a miracle..... i will make it a reality...
my morale will boost in time..... given time..... i will try 2 make it....
e qns is... is ther really time nw?????
ahya.... my updates nwadays r v. dull..... sorry.....
hope i cn concentrate on e upcumin exams......

too much of toot

2005-07-08T20:56:00.000+08:00

warning: tis is an NC16 update..... so.... anyone wif ages less than 16... pls dun look at tis blog n pls pardon e usage of e *toot* in e update...... ( cnnt sae la.... later ppl kill mi) so pls.... kids.... dun c ah...... or i tell ur dad bout it..... -.-....... bt if esther look at tis blog.... she surely.... killl mi 1.... too much vulgarities liao.... bt i censor e *toot* leh...... follow dominic 1..... shhhhh dun tel him..... shhhhhhh...........

wtf??? so many shit happen 2day.....
sch's f'ing stupid 2day....
gt maths result.... totally f'ed.....
4 marks!!!! wat e????
failed lik shit....
today.... f'ing moody..... dun feel lik tokin too much.....
Dota..... i went 2 play in doby ghought ..... gt f'ing guest..... dun 1 2 c him.... stil get 2 c him ther....
no mood 2 play e f'ing game..... crap la.... siao 1.... play lik gay... stil say i stalk him..... F* him off la.... wat a loser..... use hero.... play lik gay.... wat e F*????
wtf??? then after tat....
lots of gay stuff 2day...... stupid asshole..... ahyo......
wa lao eh...... lost sumtin important 2day...... wa lao....( eh??? now hokkien vulgar????)
paisay leh.... i lost e ting..... ( esther.... tink u noe wats tat..... e $1 ting.....) dunno go wher.....
paisay leh......
sometimes.... i tink i cnnt do sometings well..... courage is wat i need.....
hesitate too much..... wil result in my downfall.... shd i salvage e situation??? or shd i bring myself another blow.... 1 blow is enuf.... dun 1 more blows.... or else.... i will nt b able 2 take it..... breakdown will b e result.....
lik wat e song ah du has sang.... jian ci dao di.... perserverance......
shd i continue???? i noe 2 giv up is an impossible qns 4 mi nw...
yes.... tink i shd pick myself up again.... i noe i shd nt giv up.... even though ther r obsticles along e way..... if i even fall down.... i shd pick myself up again.... guys..... tel u all.... i will continue.... tis will nt end until i acheive my goal.....
tanks man god sis.... joycelyn..... miah...
4 all e *toot* u had told mi.... lol..... feel much beta nw..... wats ahead of mi.... if thers stil a ray of hope... i will go 4 it..... tanks alot guys.....

2005-07-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

stupid day again...... dun 1 2 update....... totally sian....
oni go gym 2day....... n b gay ther........ lol.....
summary: lame shit

siao day.....

2005-07-05T14:43:00.000+08:00

many days have gone past.....
exams is next week.... hav 2 start studying le....
totally sian....
bt 2day is goin 2 b a siao day.....
i m goin 2 make a day out of my god sis.....
its her b'day 2day...... i m organising a party 4 her......
totally planned in secret..... bt hard 2 plan..... hav 2 ask every1 2 join in beforehand.....
called many ppl...... n asked many ppl 2 help too.....
e greatest helper is ziwei.... he actually asked his aunt to make a cake 4 tis day.....
wow......
later goin 2 b in action.... starting e party at 3pm....
hope they keep their word..... join in n hav fun later... n finish e 1kg cake.....
sch's bit sian 2day..... lame..... slept in class e whole day..... tired... taunt e whole nite yesterday..... eh..... almost la..... slept 4 oni 3-4 hrs......
haiyo......
bt after tat dunno y.... bladder gt prob..... go in n out e washroom again n again.....
summary: lame day.....

sch starts.....

2005-06-28T14:55:00.000+08:00

long long time din update liao..... finally get a change 2 update in sch...
stupid leh.... cum 2 com lab..... cnnt play... oni cn do sum lame blogging rite nw....
schs totally sian.... din go disturb class tis few days....
feel damn sian nwadays.... totally wierd.... cumin back 2 sch after 1 mth of long long break....
changed a few teachers.... mr yuen.... gone.... dun hav tat lamer liao....
hav 2 find new person 2 bully.....
ahyo.... tml hav 2 go 4 badminton trainin again..... lame trainin...
hope cn pontang... bt if pontang again.... then i may get expelled....
totally lame policy......
sumtimes feel funny.... holidays.... hope 4 sch days....
during sch days..... hope 4 holidays..... lame tinking... lame mindset.... bt its true......
nw missing e holidays..... 1 2 wake up late.... cn slack at home..... dun need 2 worry bt any hwk....

LAN LAN N LAN

2005-06-19T17:22:00.000+08:00

another day 4 LAN again....
long time din update liao....
4got 2 update blog...
bt 2day is another lame day... palyed LAN....
4 e usual 3 hrs.....
lost n lost n lost.....
haiyo.... dun 1 2 tok bout tat...
totally lame these few days....
been in a bad mood...
pissed many ppl off.... sigh..... especially yesterday... pissed ben off... regreted arguing wif him....
bt he forgiven mi..... wats worse is tat.... nvm.... tokin bout it piss mi off again.....
btw.... tml... i hav 2 go 4 another badminton trainin...
tis time... its a camp..... stil hav maths lecture durin e camp.....
dunno wats on e organiser's mind..... eh.... sian.... dun 1 2 go 4 tat lame camp...
1 2 celebrate b'day wif engseng..... he's my gd buddy..... totally sian.... hav 2 spend time in sch....
cn i pontang e camp?
nvm.... tink tml i had 2 go 4 it...

crapwatehell

ZZZZ.....

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double sia la....

sia la

ZZZZ.....

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double sia la....

sia la

shhhh

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huh???

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zzzzz.z.... 3

wats wat is wat.....

ohh! ohh!!

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ZZZZZZZ..... no. 2

wat da hell????

zzzzzzz!!!!!

stupid day again.....

exams over!!!! weee!!!!!!!!

feel dead

exams......

weee!!!!!

too much of *toot*

siao day.....

sch starts.....

LAN LAN N LAN

too much of toot